Tralalala... ♥

Emoshiz.

2011-01-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na gustong gusto mo makasama yung isang taong mahal mo pero di pwede?

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na parang sinisingit ka lang niya para masabing di siya nagkukulang?

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na ikaw lang ang may gusto na magkita kayo at hindi siya?

Nakakainis eh. Nakakasakit. Hindi ko maintindihan kung nag-eemote lang ba ako dito dahil may hormonal changes ako or talagang ganun lang ako. Siguro, masyado lang din akong attached na sa taong yun. Hindi ko ginusto ito, hindi ko rin pinilit. Pero ganun eh, talagang mapapamahal lang sayo ng sobra ang isang tao. Pakiramdam ko noon, pareho kami ng nararamdaman, pero hindi yata. Ako lang yata yung palala ng palala. Ako lang yata yung nagbibigay nanaman ng sobra. Sabi ko noon, ayoko na ng ganitong feeling. Pero bakit ganun? mas nagmamahal ako kahit nasasaktan na ako. Ang drama ko, nakakaasar.

Hinihingi ko lang naman oras niya eh. Oo, naaappreciate ko na ang bait niya ngayon matapos lahat ng away. Pero parang very superficial lang. Bakit hindi ko maramdaman na mahal niya ako? Bakit kahit mabait na siya, masakit parin para sakin? Bakit parang kulang? Bakit ayoko makuntento?

Minsan, naiisip ko, maghiwalay na lang. Pero mukhang mahihirapan ako. O dahil naiisip ko, kayang kaya naman niya kasi na wala ako. Bakit parang kahit mawala ako, okay lang sa kanya? Kung ano ano naiisip ko, hindi ko alam kung bakit. Love ko lang naman siya talaga eh. Ewan ko na. Am I asking for too much? maybe, I am. Ewan ko na talaga. Nahihirapan narin ako. Hindi ko na alam saan ba ako lulugar. Talaga bang ganito dahil nababato ako at siya, busy? Minsan, gusto mo lang naman makarinig na, "may problema ba?" Kaso, wala eh. Wala talaga. Gusto ko lang ng attention. Kaso wala rin talaga.

Nakakalungkot. Kung kailan gustong gusto mo na makasama at makita yung taong mahal mo, tska hindi pwede.

Ang hirap. :|

Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart

2009-11-30T16:43:00.002+08:00

Mygosh. It's been a week since we stopped texting. I don't know what's going on. I just want to have closure if possible. I miss him a lot and I can't stop thinking about him but I know everything's different now. He's gone and I'm left alone. I really want to talk to him but there's something that is stopping me from doing so. It's been three weeks since our last talk. I sent him a message on our day but he didn't reply. I really don't know what's up with him. :( I am sad but normal, I guess. :|

I'm trying to act normal. I really am.
I'm trying to just stop thinking about him.
I am trying everything I can just to forget him.

Now, I am just holding on to the Lord. I know He will never ever leave me. He will guide me wherever and whenever. :)

I'm back cos I'm broken.

2009-11-30T16:41:00.000+08:00

POST LAST NOVEMBER something...

I don't know why I feel so bothered lately. I can't stop thinking about things. What things? I don't know either. I am just so confused with what I am feeling right now. Ever felt like you need a lot of explanation but there's no one to explain? I am searching for tons of answers lately and this feeling just makes me act super weird. I can't sleep nor eat properly. At school, I feel I am okay but when I get home, here goes my mind wandering again. :| Trying to analyze people's advices and responses to every happening makes me insane. I'm getting sick and tired of this feeling but I just can't forget. Honestly, maybe this is just because of one person. As much as I want to ignore everything that happened between us, I really can't. I know it's pathetic. :(

On the other hand, I can't tell that person what I'm going through right now. I am too scared that I might lose him. I am too afraid that he might think I am such an obsessed and easy girl. Honestly, I really can't find the right words to express what I have here in my heart and mind. I guess this is my first time to feel something like this. Maybe because I think he's perfect for me. He made me truly happy. He made me feel very important. He made me feel loved and secured. Setting aside the sweetness and cuteness he showed, he made me feel something different; something true.

Some people say this is just an infatuation. Maybe, it is. But for me I guess it's not. I think I wouldn't be super problematic and worried about things if I am just playing around like a kid. I wouldn't have those sleepless nights if what I feel for him isn't real. I wouldn't cry every night if he really didn't have an impact on me.I wouldn't wake up in the middle of the night wondering if he's thinking about me. Maybe, I just miss him a lot. I miss talking to him, laughing with him. EVERYTHING. :( I don't know if I would still be able to do those things with him. But I'll keep on praying.... I'll keep on praying for him. For us to be okay someday.

I don't know why I am saying these things, honestly. Perhaps, I just want to burst out half of my drama.

Oh well. I tagged you because you're special to me. Also, I need your prayers, badly. I don't want to feel this way anymore because I think it's too unfair. Maybe it's my fault too cos I don't have the guts to tell him what I feel. I don't have the strength to let him know that what I feel for him. Maybe because I am really scared of losing him. I am scared that he might just leave me without saying goodbye. Or maybe he thinks I am not serious about this. But I know God has plans for me. Just pray that I may have peace of mind. Please.. (Grabe ang labo ko na. Sorry.) I am very very confused. :| :( =((

TO YOU: I am thankful for having someone like you. Thank you for letting me feel this. I just hope things would be crystal clear in time. HAHA. Please don't ever leave me. I don't care what our status is right now, but I really wish that... BLAH. You know that already. I guess I'll be holding on to the things you said before unless you tell me to forget everything. I miss you so much... I miss being with you... I miss everything about you...

KAPAG SINABI KO YUNG ISANG "I MISS", ALAM MO NA KUNG SINO TO. KAYA WAG NA. =))))) KIDDING. :)

I'm sorry for this sabog entry. I should be having fun tonight but.. :|

28th's coming. :D

2009-01-21T00:29:00.002+08:00

Okay. I'm turning 18 seven days from now. :D Yayyyy! :)

My simple wishes were granted. :D I got an iPhone, a new camera plus shopping money. Yayyy! :)) Plus, I'll also be having dinner party with my friends on the 24th and 30th. :D Can't waitttttttt. :D

Thanks for my parents for making my birthday month special! :D Lovethemmmmlots.

*I didn't ask for a formal debut party cos i find it super hassle talaga. I'm too busyyy with school and it would probably kill me if i'd have one pa. Hahahaha. Oh well. I know my simple treat will be reallyyyyy fun. :)

UPDATE! :D

2008-12-26T17:41:00.003+08:00

I guess I have to update this blog before the year ends, aye? Hahaha. :D Before anything else, I want to greet everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

In a couple of days, 2009 is coming.
New year, new life. :)

I hope January 1st strikes with peace.

Can you imagine all the dramas that happened this year diba? But despite of all those, happiness still never left me. Thank God for a fruitful year. :D

SUPERHUMAN: Thank you so much for bringing light to my life. Although it lasted only for less than a month, your effect on me was great. I'm sorry for hurting you, for bringing you so much pain... I just hope you'd talk to me soon. I wish we would be friends just like before. It's not like you're going anywhere, right? See you soon, Sushi. :) Thank you, again and again. :)

FIRE EXIT: Hey you, I know we haven't spent so much time together now but I want to thank you for trying to be there for me all the time. I love you, bestfriend. :)

PAPAW: You ruined everything! Hahaha. Kidding. :P I want to thank you also for your efforts. For your willingness to change just to get back my trust and love; for always coming back to me although I'm pushing you away. Thank you. :)

CRETIN: Thank you for keeping your mouth shut now. Though I know you're still stabbing me hard behind my back. I want to say sorry for causing you too much trouble. For giving you loads of dramas. You know I didn't do everything intentionally, it just happened. I just wish you true happiness and peace now. I hope you'd grow up and eventually mature. :) And please get a life. :D God bless!

THEBFF'S: You two are so plastic. Last na 'to. Haha. But you know I can't do anything about it. I guess I just have to let everything pass again. :) Hope you might as well change. :D Please grow up. :D

THEBOYSSS: Thank you for being such good friends. :) I love you so much. =*

Important people in my life I really treasure. :D

To everyone, HAPPY HOLIDAYS! May we all have a blessed year ahead. :D God bless us all. :)

It's been a while. :P

2008-12-04T19:20:00.002+08:00

Okay. I'm kind of 'free' tonight. HAHAHA. Intrams lang so I really have nothing to do until tomorrow. :D Thank God atleast my brain can rest for 2 days. Haha!

A lot of things has been happening.
Too many things to tell.
Too many things to talk about.

And it would really take long for me to tell you everything. Just go and find everything out. Hahahaha. Especially YOU who is very intrigued about my life. (Points out to the girl who asks her friend from the States to view this effin' blog just because she's freakin' scared that I might find out her f*ckin' IP Address and her forest-y house. *laughs really hard*)

Well anyway, my subjects now are killing my neurons already. All I can do is to go to sleep after school, wake up and study study study! I can't even watch tv anymore. Ugh okay, part of me is saying I should shift course, but I have and I know I can do this. Haha! I WILL. Definitely. :D

I'm terribly missing someone right now cos he's not talking to me. :/ Sushiiiiiii. :(

(Hey you Cretin a.k.a. Stalker, mag-investigate ka na! :D)

Another.

2008-10-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

Random title. Haha! Anyway, just got home from a longggggggg sleepless night. Vv had a sleepover at my condo @ the fort. (Upload the pictures please. :DD)

1. Friday: CSR @ 12nn
2. Powerplant shopping with Eesah, Dorothy and Jo
3. CSR again to meet up with batchmates
4. Went to Glorietta to... SHOP again! :))
5. Swimming at the clubhouse.
6. Picked up Edizza
7. Swim again. (2 minutes nalang! :]]]]])
8. Washed up.
9. Went to Highstreet.
10. Krispy Kreme and Club Princess
11. Mckinley stopover
12. Back to condo
13. Waited for the guys
14. Drink drink drink!
15. FUN FUN FUN
16. MY 2-minute moment. :">
17. Slept @5.30am
18. Woke up at 9.30am
19. Bathing
20. Lunch
21. Brought them to Glorietta.
22. Went home @ 3pm
23. House-to-house for the Halloween Party @ 4-6.30.
24. Dinner @ the fort.
25. Shopping @ Highstreet.
26. Starbucks.
27. Went with Josh to shop again.
28. Finally, I'm home. :>

2 dayssssss- I am super tired but happy. I swear. :"> I love it. ♥

Gomenasai.

2008-10-22T23:28:00.006+08:00

So I told him to stop.

I don't know. It just popped into my mind. I thought nothing would really happen to us so I decided to put an end to what's he's doing. (Gad, he's the 7th(?) guy I dumped in 2 months:/)

I feel guilty everytime he calls me and I don't answer. Everytime he sends me messages and I don't reply. Everytime I make excuses just to cover up for my mistakes...

I'm tired of doing these. I'm sick of all the dramas. Of everything...
Perhaps I need time for myself. I need to focus on myself alone...

TO YOU: I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry... Thank you for respecting my decision. Thanks for being there all the time; for your patience and understanding. Super thank you. :) Someone better deserves what you're giving me right now. Just go and look for her. You will soon find her for sure. I hope you'd soon be okay. Goodluck! :)

1st Semesterrrr Blah.

2008-10-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

I got my grades already. Pfttt. Okay naman.

What makes me sad? :

Nakakainis talaga. 0.06 na lang for earth's sake! :( Perhaps, nagkulang ako sa push. Nagkulang ako sa effort. Nagkulang ako! : Plus, I had depressing months pa diba? Hindi naman kita sinisisi pero kasalanan ko rin naman dahil nagpaapekto ako. Oh well. Can you imagine, 0.01 na lang ang kailangan ko in six subjects to be in the Dean's List, hindi parin nahabol. : GAAAAAAH talaga, Blanche. Nakakainis.
Di bale, may second sem pa. Kaya ko 'to! Kayang kaya. I mean, kakayanin. :))) In God, I trust. :D

* for the Dean's listers: OMEDITOU MINA~SAN! :) Job well done! :)

My feelings show. :)

2008-10-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I'm torn between two lovers. I'm effin' confused. :/

Okay, so there's this guy who courts me. Before he came, there was another guy... Then we sort of lost communication for awhile...

Biglang boom! I saw him earlier. :))

He texted me. We started talking again. He was sweet again. :

pffffffffffffffffft. Kilig ako, OO NA! :)))

Losers never win. :D

2008-10-13T15:39:00.004+08:00

I saw EVERYTHING.

* You even posted it for everyone, aye? That's how nice you are. Do you think I'll leave a comment and say things you're expecting me to say? Boo you! :))
* And to you little girl, you're pathetic. Stop following every inch of what I do. You can't get anything from me. Leave me and you'll be safe.
* Also you, young man. Stop pretending you know nothing. I'm not stupid, ok?
* To you Greenman, please stop thinking you're still in me. Stop being a fan of my posts, you won't see anything about you. But I think you have to continue viewing my pictures to see how far I am to where you are right now. HAHAHA. I'm in the NP and you're in SP for heaven's sake! =)) A little advice for you: Be sure of what you're doing now cos you might regret it later. :)

Hey you, tall man. Stop being sooo dramatic. Haha. Just wait, I might tell you I love you too. :)

I think I'm inlove. =))

2008-10-10T23:01:00.002+08:00

Okay, so I was with him again earlier. <33333

Gad. I can't imagine I'm blogging about that guyyyy now. He makes me feel soooooooo... Hayy! :D I really don't understand why buttttt. WAAAAAA. That's it. Bwahaha. He gives me this weird feeling everytime I look at his cute smile... He makes my heart beat fast everytime I see him around the corner...

I don't know if how long would this last.
I'm not sure if he is true.
....
But I pray, this time it's for real. :D

To you, thanks for making me happy. :D Although I'm not telling you how I'm feeling right now, bastaaaaaaaaa. In time. :D

BOOM! =)) BUKO. :P

2008-10-09T20:22:00.003+08:00

Last day of Academic finals tomorrow!:)) Yipee! :D

*I was so happy kanina when I got my chemlec exam result. :) WOOOOOOO. Yun lang. =))

--And oh, to those who are viewing this blog, hello to you. Why don't you guys let yourself be close to me para naman I can be more detailed in telling you what's going on with my life?:P I'm willing to share everything to you, honestly. :P

...I went out with the guy I like earlier. :)

Finals' Week Randomness

2008-10-07T21:22:00.003+08:00

*Had Chemlab and Nihongo exam earlier. Gaaaah. Nihongo, nosebleed=)) Ohwell.
4 days to go and I'm freeeeeeeee! :D

*Should be studying in Math now but I'm quite bored.
TFN on Thursday and I'm nervous about it. HAHA.

*I'm aiming for being in the Dean's List this semester. Wish me luck!
Better pray for me! :D Thanksiesss! :D

*MY LIFE? It's getting better, I think. Or NOT? =)) Well, I guess it is. Not sure on holidays cos I've got nothing to do by then. Hahah. And that's like, 3 weeks or so? PFFFFT. Impacted wisdom tooth operation only and I'm a bummer! =)))

O-tanjoubi omeditou!

2008-10-04T13:43:00.005+08:00

O~tanjoubi wa omeditou, Coby san! :D He's eight years old now. :>

Anyways. Intrigues are part of me, I guess. HAHAHA. :P

Tingin ng tingin dito. Wala naman kayong makikita. I dare you, why don't you guys leave a comment here? bumebenta ngayon eh. :)) Oh well.

Para naman matuwa kayo. Sige, I'll tell you about my life now. I wanted to keep this sana but then there are people who don't stop thinking about... the past? haha kidding. bitter! He's still a part though. :P

I'm happy. I am really. There's this someone who makes me smile everyday. There's this someone who never forgets to brighten up my day although rain keeps on pouring. Hahaha! I don't know what will happen to us in the near future. Perhaps we would end up being together or stay the way we are now. Basta the bottomline is, I am happy. :> since when? i think a month and a half now. :>

Befriend me, I'll tell you the whole story. :D

Hell.

2008-10-02T00:24:00.003+08:00

Stupid things are running through my mind now. EFFFF.

Now I know the effin' reason why it all came back. shitshot. Hahahaha. Ohwell. May that creature enjoy everything now. You suck. You all suck.

Thought I was the worst. I was wrong.
It's you, man. It's you.

That's all. Thanks.

Pfft.

2008-09-28T14:06:00.004+08:00

So many things to do. So little time.

Last week this week before the finals! :/
TFN report, Math&TFN&Nihongo tests, CHEM quizzes... GAH.

Oh Lord, please help me get through these things. By next week, I'll be having my final exams already. Sana naman maka-concentrate na ako. Be my inspiration, Lord. Please. I need your guidance, God. :)

Hey you! Samishii yo. Nagcompet ka lang, hindi ka na nagparamdam. Tssskk. =))) Oh well. At ikaw naman, namimiss narin kita. SOBRA. :/

blahblah

2008-09-27T21:56:00.002+08:00

Okay. I'm slowly making my life better. I'm trying to live happily now but everytime I feel this way, I think I'm being selfish. :/ I told everyone I'm not giving up, but I think I am, gradually. I don't want to, but I think he wants me to. :(

I'm waiting here patiently for him to talk to me. But he just wouldn't talk. I don't know if he's just waiting. But I am too. :/

Basta, I want you to approach me para I know you want to talk to me. Hindi katulad kapag ako nag-appraoch sayo, feeling ko, napipilitan ka lang. You told me we're friends so don't hesitate talking to me. :> I'd be more willing to talk to you. Namimiss na kita sa totoo lang. Tinitiis ko lang. :/

tired.

2008-09-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

I am tired. I'm starting to get numb.
But I'll keep on praying. I'll keep on holding on.
I'll never let go. I'll be strong.
Forever.

-selective amnesia, please? :))

I miss you.

2008-09-19T18:31:00.014+08:00

I miss this guy so much already. I haven't talked to him for 5 longgg days now. :/ Tsk. I know I don't cross his mind now, but still... GAH.

You're always on mind.

I love you, babe. :(

"If you wanna know how much I miss you, try to catch the raindrops. The ones you catch is how much you miss me and the ones you miss is how much i miss you.."

Prayer.

2008-09-14T18:25:00.006+08:00

Holy Mass earlier.

As I was praying, tears wanted to fall.
As I was looking at His face, my heart was melting.

I just can't imagine how good He is to me. He never left me. He was never ashamed of me. Everytime I ask something from Him, He wholeheartedly gives me whatever it is.

Kanina, nagdadasal ulit ako tungkol samin. Nagdadasal ako na sana maging okay kami ulit; na sana huwag niyang hayaang mawala ako. Pero parang habang sinasabi ko yun sa Kanya, unti-unti akong nanlalambot parang gusto ko na lang lahat ipaubaya sa Kanya. Paulit-ulit kong sinasabi sa Kanya na mahal ko 'yung taong pinagdarasal ko. Na sana sa Christmas, maging masaya na ulit kaming magkasama. Kahit nga sa 18th birthday ko, siya na lang sana ang regalo ko. Sa totoo lang, I don't want material things for Christmas and for my birthday. Mabigay lang ulit sakin yung pagmamahal na gusto ko, masaya na ko.

Ang gusto ko lang mangyari ngayon ay maging okay kami. Parang last year, masaya naman kaming naglolokohan at nagaasaran. Masaya na ko kapag siya yung naunang kumausap sakin. Ngayon kasi, ibang iba. Para talagang isa akong kakilala lang na kakausapin niya kapag ako yung kumausap sa kanya. Wala lang. Feeling ko kasi, ganun eh.

Nasasaktan ako sa mga nangyayari. Pero kahit anong gawin niyang pananakit, hindi ko kasi magawang magalit sa kanya. Kahit ilang beses pa niya ako siguro ipagtabuyan, hindi ko kayang sumuko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito pero siguro sabi ni God, huwag ako mag-give up. Basta, bahala na si Lord. Ipagpapatuloy ko nalang ipagdasal ang taong yun. Siguro, yun lang ang kaya ko ipakita sa kanya ngayon...

Gustong gusto ko iparamdam sayo kung gaano kita kamahal. Gustong gusto ko bumawi sa lahat ng pagkukulang ko. Gusto kong makasama ka hanggang sa huli pero kasi parang pinipigilan mo ako. Sana naman magkaroon pa ko ng pagkakataon gawin lahat ng gusto kong gawin para sayo... Sana naman huwag mo kong kalimutan. Sana naman matutunan mo kong mahalin ulit... :( Alam kong kaya natin 'to... Huwag mo lang pabayaan...

--200 days na sana kami sa October 26. :(

"I’m waiting for the sky to fall
I’m waiting for a sign"

No comment.

2008-09-14T14:58:00.002+08:00

Hay. I can't understand myself.
I don't know what to do now.

I don't want to move.
I don't want to do anything.
:/

I need you.
I love you.
Please don't push me away.

Don't tear us apart.
:(

TFN Blah.

2008-09-13T13:30:00.002+08:00

Our TFN class was cancelled again. Haha. I was supposed to have a 12-4 class today but yeah, it was postponed. As always. T_T

Dang. It's the 13th today. : I want to talk to him but I don't know what's stopping me. He's online and I am too. Buttttt. : Gaaaaaaaah. Maybe I'm waiting for him to talk to me like what he did to his friend last week. :

Hello. :D

2008-09-11T21:21:00.005+08:00

I'm physically, mentally and emotionally tired. I swear I need atleast 3 days of rest. I don't know why I feel this way. It is just so tiring having your body, mind and heart work all at the same time. Sometimes I want to set aside my heart but something's pulling me not to.

They say, 'love without expecting to be loved in return'. It makes me wonder why. Don't I deserve to be loved by someone I love? I even sometimes think that person is selfish but there's nothing I can do. Perhaps... I don't know. HAHA. There's a part of me saying I should stop and let go but I really can't understand what's pulling me back. Perhaps, it's still L.O.V.E.

I admit everytime we talk, I feel less pain. I don't feel bitterness rather. Although he tells me things a girl wouldn't want to hear from a guy she's inlove with for the rest of her life, I see it a challenge. I don't know why it makes me strong. Well, stronger. Some people tell me, if they were in my place, they would probably break down and give up. But I am different. I can't understand myself everytime I'm being rejected and forgotten, I'd do things to make them feel I am not worth of their rejection.

Several things are just so unclear to me. I can't understand him and even myself too. Perhaps we both need time to realize our worth and purpose for each other. We both have to ponder on what we can do to make us better. We need time. Only time.

Sorry for this, I just believe we are meant to be together. Although trials are continuously coming our way, I know with God, we'll get through this. I know we will. :)

Just keep holding on.
Prayers are powerful and with God, all things are possible. :)

CONFUSED.

2008-09-05T14:25:00.002+08:00

No classes for today. HAHA. Again, I was supposed to be doing a lot lot lot of things but I just couldn't start. HAHA.

I saw my ex yesterday. And I missed him, terribly. I tried to act as if nothing happened between the two of us. I tried to be a friend to him and I guess, I did.

When I woke up earlier, the first thing that came into my mind was him. I don't know why. I just suddenly remembered him. :| I missed everything about him. I suddenly wanted to talk to him. Akala ko, okay na ako. I thought I was over him. But now, I'm thinking... Guess I'm wanting him back again despite of everything that happened a month ago. Although he did nothing but to tease me yesterday, I realized that it was a sweet thing. I don't know.

I am confused of totally letting him go or keep holding on to him. Gaaad.
Oh well. Perhaps what I can just do is to let things as it should be; to let him do what he wants and just be happy for him...

Should I stay this way or do something for him?

:)

2008-08-24T20:31:00.004+08:00

Blog. Hahaha. Goodbye to Blanche the shopper. Hello to Blanche the homebuddy. =))) I can't understand myself. My mother couldn't understand me as well. I was supposed to go shopping earlier but I told them to leave me. =)) EMO. Oh well.

I'm home alone. They're still out kasi. Gaaaaaaah. : I tried to study Chemistry kanina but I suddenly fell asleep. HAHAHA. My mum called me up and asked what's happening to me. I don't know either. =))

Ohwell.
He finally talked to me. :)
Thank God for answering my prayer. :D

Sana tuloy tuloy na 'tong pagiging magkaibigan natin. Hindi lang ngayong gabi tayo mag-uusap. Sana habang may bukas, may usap. HAHA. Okay na ko sa ganito. Atleast I know you're happy now. Dapat maging happy na din ako for you. :) I'm really thankful for tonight. :D

Twenty-four

2008-08-23T20:33:00.002+08:00

24 na bukas! :(

Hay. I still haven't talked to him. I super miss Paopao already. :( I miss everything about him. I miss his laughter, his smile, his silly jokes, his sweetness, his cuteness. I miss everytime he makes tampo, I miss everything! HAY. I just wish he'd talk to me soon. :(

I miss you a lot, Dear... :(

Anyways, I'm having hyperacidity already. I haven't eaten right since the start of this month. : I am always not in the mood; I do not enjoy going out anymore. :( Hayyy. When will I go back to myself?

I love you. ♥

2008-08-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

Okay, I think I'm slowly drowning. I don't know. Well actually, I do not know what to do and I'm leaving everything to God now. :)

If you feel like talking to me, give me a call. I'd be glad to hear your voice.
If you suddenly remembered me, leave me a message. I'd surely reply.
Don't hesitate to approach me, my dear. Remember, the key to my heart is still with you.

I'll be waiting for you to knock on my door! :)

It's the 24th on Sunday, advanced happy twenty-four! I love you just the same! :)

emosh*t.

2008-08-20T19:57:00.004+08:00

"Love is within us. It cannot be destroyed. It cannot be ignored. To the extent that we abandon love, we will feel it has abandoned us. Denying love is our only problem, and embracing it is the only answer. Through the power of love, we can let go of the past and begin again. Love heals, forgives, and makes whole. " -Ernest Holmes

Hay. I hate myself. But Gaaddd. Hating myself would not change anything or everything. I just want to cut my wrist off so as to stop the pain. I want to sleep and never wake up again. : I'm hurt and this is all because of me. :((

I just want to fix everything. I just want to be okay and live as if nothing happened. But I'm stopping myself from doing these because I don't have him. I want him back, really. I want us to be back not as lovers but as friends. I know time is all we need but I thought, why waste time if we know in ourselves we can be friends as early as now? :(

I feel sad everytime we have the chance to talk but we don't. I feel sad everytime I stop myself from texting him. I feel sad everytime I worry about him cos I know I cannot do anything because he doesn't want me to. I'm trying to be mad just to stop the pain but I just couldn't do it.

Love takes over my whole spirit... I just hope he'd talk to me soon. I just hope he'd forgive me and let go of the stupid things I've done.

I love you...:'(

Hyper.

2008-06-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

I really don't feel like writing but I think I just have to post something in here. REMEMBRANCE. Hahahaha.

First week in college was awesome! :) New friends, new professors, new faces, new world. Really. Oh by the way, I'm currently taking up BS-N at MakatiMed. :) Anywaysss, meeting new people is really fun. I have a new set of friends with two old friends (Ayesa and Intia). Hahaha. Calling out Daboyssss and Hephep Hooray, I miss you girlalooosss already! :)) I don't know why we just have fun laughing till the end of our classes, sitting anywhere available (talking about a broken chair, here :D). And oh, before I forget, Greggyyyy, the best friend of all is the best! He always sleeps in class but knows each one of us. Oha, saan ka pa! Hahaha. :)) But lahat ng bagay may kapalit. Our laughter is equal to tons of schoolwork to do. T_____T Ohwell. That's the main reason I go to school though.

sEXIMIUS mini-reunion earlier! I went to CSR at around 9.30 in the morning to wait for my friends and get our yearbooks together. Plant with my lover and met with my friends again. HAHA.

I missed Jo and Mkat (my seatmates) include Ariane too, terribly. I couldn't express how happy I was seeing them again. Hahaha. Langya, special mention kayo dito. =)) Oh well.

Dv my babe, I wasn't able to see you kanina. TAE. Darating ka daw eh.

Hoyy VVDMNZ+Louise+Angel= Isa pa kayo! Namiss ko kayo although we weren't really able to bond together kanina. Hahahah. Next time ulit! :)

Fifteen things God won't ask you. :)

2008-06-02T18:37:00.002+08:00

Fifteen Things God Won’t Ask
by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

God won’t ask what kind of car you drove, but will ask how many people you drove who didn’t have transportation.

God won’t ask the square footage of your house, but will ask how many people you welcomed into your home.

God won’t ask about the fancy clothes you had in your closet, but will ask how many of those clothes helped the needy.

God won’t ask about your social status, but will ask what kind of class you displayed.

God won’t ask how many material possessions you had, but will ask if they dictated your life.

God won’t ask what your highest salary was, but will ask if you compromised your character to obtain that salary.

God won’t ask how much overtime you worked, but will ask if you worked overtime for your family and loved ones.

God won’t ask how many promotions you received, but will ask how you promoted others.

God won’t ask what your job title was, but will ask if you reformed your job to the best of your ability.

God won’t ask what you did to help yourself, but will ask what you did to help others.

God won’t ask how many friends you had, but will ask how many people to whom you were a true friend.

God won’t ask what you did to protect your rights, but will ask what you did to protect the rights of others.

God won’t ask in what neighborhood you lived, but will ask how you treated your neighbors.

God won’t ask about the color of your skin, but will ask about the content of your character.

God won’t ask how many times your deeds matched your words, but will ask how many times they didn’t.

He's in Bora :D

2008-05-18T00:33:00.002+08:00

He's in Bora and we haven't talked that much.
Oh I'm missing him a lot. HAHA. :)

::: Hey you! Go home now cos I want to... mwa you. HAHA.
Sorry, I'm just super bored.

Please take my place, will you?

2008-05-16T01:20:00.000+08:00

It was a good day but then someone just made it the worst. Well, you don't know the person that I'm going to talk about here anyway. I'm just pissed and wants to chop his ugly head off.

I met him just earlier. He's the mossssstttt cocky guy I've ever met in my entire life. I don't care if he's older and has gained a lot of experiences than me. It's just that, the thing I'm doing is not his job.

Okay. I'm the president of the goddamn youth club here in our village and as for my second activity, I'll be holding a basketball league next week. And the YOUTH is and will always be my priority. DUH. Hours ago, while I was having a short meeting with my officers, there was this guy who honked his car and called one of my officers. He was complaining, well, it sounded like a complaint to me, about the damn league. Since UNfortunately, I am the president, I went to him and told my plan regarding the activity. He didn't listen at all. He kept on talking and swearing like he's the president of the universe. He's like telling me he could do anything and has the power to do everything in this goddamn world. So I was shocked. I wasn't expecting a guy whom I just met would talk to me that way. He kept on boasting about what the youth club did ten longgg years ago. And I think, that was really stupid. The kids ten years ago were faaar farrr different from the kids of today. Well not only the kids but the entire planet! :)) So anyway, I got pissed because first of all, he's not a kid nor a member of the youth. GAAH. If I could exchange places with him, I would. PROMISE. And eto pa pala, he kept on telling us to use the powers of our dads cos they're the high ranking colonels and generals. Gad. Edi sana naging club na lang 'to ng mga tatay!

I swear, gusto ko nang sabihin sa kanya kanina na...
"ALAM MO NAMAN PALA LAHAT E, IKAW NA GUMAWA DIN NG LAHAT."

And eto pa! He was telling me things were so simple and easy to do. But, in the end of our meeting, i-aasa niya rin pala sa akin. Sa amin. Ang kapal ng mukha mo, deymyew.

HAHAHA. Enough. This blog entry is very non-sense.

I just admire those who are so proud of themselves. Buti sana kung gwapo kayo, sige magyabang kayo. Pero tae, let him go to hell. Demmet.

Well, he could've talked to me and approached my nicely. 'Yan tuloy, tumaas nanaman kilay ko at nagtaray. It wasn't my fault, its his.

To you: Although you wouldn't have the chance to read this, gawd. Respect the people around you so they'll respect you back. It doesn't mean you're older than me, I would just listen and do whatever you say. I'm sorry but I'm different. Deymyou, I don't want to see your UGLY FACE ever again! By the way, if you want my place, then take it.

All I'm asking is respect.
Damn. I'm fuckin' stressed. :|

In-love Again.

2008-04-06T15:57:00.001+08:00

The hardest thing.

Now, I think I'm in-love again with the person I loved before. Although I am not so sure what he thinks right now, I'm 90% willing to take the risk of loving and getting hurt again.

But there's this fear I feel of losing him once more.
I don't know.
It's just soooo unclear.

Basta, the bottom line is, I love him. :)

"You won't miss someone you don't love." -Shasha

Goodbye, G600. || 040408

2008-04-06T15:50:00.003+08:00

School @ 10am.
MMC @ 11am.
Glorietta with Eesah.

Okay, so Eesah and I was looking around Glorietta to find a gift for her loved one. We weren't able to see any so we decided to roam around SM.

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With just one click, after my last step going to Glorietta, my phone got lost. I couldn't find it in my bag so with my other shopping bags as well.

Damn. First time, big time!

I bought that phone just this January.
Can't believe I had it for like 2 and a half months only. :((

The "UGH" Day. T_____T

2007-12-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

Okay. I wasn't really pissed off or anything but there were just unexpected things that happened. Haha. Well, I started the day right though. I woke up feeling relaxed and all but then BOOM! Hahaha!

First, heels day! But my heels just didn't go with me. I mean like, it didn't support me all the way. Hahahaha. It wasn't mine in the first place. :)) It was owned by the goddamn shoe cabinet. My REAL shoes were missing. Darn, mehn. Hahahaha. OHWELL! Thanks to Trixie and Stek for saving me through the day. :))

--Had a test in Health and THE.

Next, I forgot my not-so-velvety black wallet at home. DEYM! Haha. But thanks to Sham for lending me money. Haha. Gotta pay her tomorrow. :)

I think this was the last, I failed my Calculus test. T___T This really made me sad. Oh well. I just have to make bawi this coming exam. Haha.

The catechism kids ended my day well. There were 22 new children so I made 22 new friends! Hahaha! The session earlier was fun. :) Thanks to them for putting a smile on my face although playing with them really made me tired. Haha.

Thank you, Lord. ♥

♥ Happy Birthday!

2007-12-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

Today was a happy day! Yehey. :))

-- inspirational words from Mrs. G. :)
start the day with a prayer.
--Music Caroling.
rush rush baby. tugs tugs. :))
--deym that bbq. haha. T____T
--eco film viewing--Advertising
--Math time with Ms. Lee
--Filipino time [el fili and test results were released. :D i got 38. yess! :))]
--Computer exam. :DD
--THE exam. [cover?]
--Physics!

I slept in the bus. :)) Funny.
Thanks to Xandz for waking me up. Hahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PAO!
<3

Oh no! It's the 13th tomorrow. Haha.
I still crush you, my dear. :))
HAPPY 13. ♥

It's Christmas...

2007-12-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

It's 12 in the morning. Haha.
I can't sleep cos I just woke up 2 hours ago. :))

Mygally. Christmas is about to come. Jeeezzz.

At ayoko pa magpasko.
Malamig. :))

Hay ohwell.
2 years. Supposedly.
sinayang ko lang. T____________T

Annual School Play

2007-11-25T13:47:00.000+08:00

Colegio de Sta. Rosa Makati, in cooperation with the ARSC Student Council, presents "INTO THE WOODS", a musical play which will be held on November 29, 2007 at 5pm in the school auditorium. This Tony award-winning musical combines the well-known fairy tales of Cinderella, Jack and the Beanstalk, Rapunzel, Little Red Riding Hood and other fairy tales. Tickets are available for only P150. Invite your friends to watch too. See you there! :)

Poster by Isabela Martinez

Kimmie's. :DD

2007-11-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!:DD

to me? and to Kim, my love. hahaha.

Went to Glorietta with family.
Met up with Bettina.
Bought shoes.
Bought a gift for Kim. :)
Taxi trip with Bet. :DD

Dinner at Dencio's. Kim's treat. :DD
Thanks thanks. Had so much fun. :)
Jamming with Mon and the band. =))

"cos I can't get you out of my mind..."

It's the 24th. Wala lang. :/
Happy 24 to you? T______T

random.

2007-11-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Haven't updated this thingo lately.

I've been too busy doing stuff. T____T But not really. Haha. Labo ko talaga ever. :) Tonight was sort of a 'free night' for me. :)) I'll be one of the facilatators of the 2nd year interaction sooooo NO CLASSES for me tomorrow. :))
[goodluck na lang sa paghabol].

Ohwell.

Still busy for the school play. Geddemet. I think it'll be 2 weeks from now? WAAAA. I'm efffiiinnn' nervous. AND PRESSURED. AND WORRIED, TOO! :))We haven't done the whole blocking thing, still have no idea how to sing without the vocals, costume changing, EVERYTING. Geeddeemmeeet. Hahaha.

OHWELL AGAIN. Hahahaha.

Oh oh oh. Early this morning was a BIGGG shame for me. I arrived at school 10 to 7, I think. Reached the classroom then boom! I'd be the sharer daw. Mygally. I had no idea what the Gospel was, no idea what to say. really. I WASN'T PREPARED. It was suchhhhhh a shame, kidd. O_o I was in front of the CSR community talking non-sense. Fudge, mehn.
[it was a rush, yo.]

IDK. I feel bad about that. I still feel like I wasn't able to share what I had to share. Get me? :)) ohwell.

Basta. :))
Call me, and I'll tell you the whole story. Hahaha kidding.

One more thing! T___T
Geddemmett. Someone's using my name! T_T
IS THIS HOW FAMOUS I AM? hahahhahaha. Kidding.
[damn you, don't let me know who you are for I'll most probably shave your fckin' hair.]

iamfallingevenmoreinlovewithyou. <3

Baby Boy

2007-11-02T01:25:00.001+08:00

[make it boy ah. haha. goddamnit. EMO SEM-BREAK.]

BABY GIRL
--Inner Voices
There are times when i look in your eyes
i see the love that we shared
i see the joy inside
but i didn't see the feelings you hide
and now you're saying goodbye
because your love has died

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby

baby girl
why don't you come back to me
why don't you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore...(2x)

There are times
when i kiss you goodnight
I feel the love that we shared
I feel the joy inside
but I didn't feel what you tried to hide
and now you're saying goodbye
because your feeling has died

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby

baby girl
why don't you come back to me
why don't you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore...(2x)

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby

I love you.

2007-10-31T19:44:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M CRYING OVER YOU, AGAIN. :((

Kuratsa Boholana

2007-10-30T13:29:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was THE day. Haha. I went to Powerplant, met up with my groupmates and had lunch/merienda at Starbucks.

FOLK DANCE PRACTICE! ;D
YUMMY FOOD AT JEDD'S. [Thanks to your mom, dear. :)]
Walkathon with Alex, Jedd, Aubrey, Monch and Kim.
Tricycle trip with Kimmie, my love. <3

MCDO. :)
Nice seeing you again, pare.

Mygally. Not really in the mood. T_____T
It's sem-break and breaks just make my heart breaks.
HAHAHA LABO.

But darn, I missed you, paparapapao. :))
Baduy. :[

Hayyay. Here I go again. Hahaha.
Can't express how I feel right now. T_T

OH WELL.

People say that I just have to let you know how I feel and perhaps, this is the best way to say...

I still love you. :)

Keep Nothing but Memories. :)

2007-10-20T14:38:00.000+08:00

I woke up at around 4.30 in the morning to prepare myself for our outbound trip at Mt. Banahaw. Arrived in school at 5 and left by 6.30 because of Peneloppe who forgot to pass the reply slips. It's okay, though. Hahaha.

The GHETTOS were in one bus, together with the half of senioritas. :) Too bad, Kris, Ains, Sham, Far and Mikee [i'm missing one more! T_T] weren't able to join us. :( It was supposedly our last outbound together. Awwwww. :(( I just can't believe that this was the last outbound in highschool na talaga. Waaaa.

Everybody was asleep except for me, Audz and Kim. We were just chatting merely about life, faith and friendship. Hahah. My gally, our conversation was just getting deeper and deeper as we were getting faaaarrrrrr from the city.

Had a stopover to have breakfast. :) We ate at Cinnabon--no, but bought drinks there and had the usual breakfast sandwich--Sausage Mcmuffin with egg. Hahaha. Travelled again... Decided to sleep but again, we didn't sleep. Haha.

We arrived at the place by 9.30 and started hiking and trekking and visiting the churches over there. It was funny cos we had 'kasabays' from a boys' school and ofcourse, there were gays. Haha. The gays wanted to join us. They belong to us daw! Hahaha. :))

We went inside a cave. A very 'masikip' cave. Haha. It was believed that if you passed the cave safely and without any wounds at all, your sins for 7 years would be forgiven and if not, you're a very sinful person. Good thing, I was able to pass safely and without a single bruise. Haha. :)

Hiking and trekking till 2.30, I think. We climbed Mt. Kalbaryo [is that how you spell it? Haha.] in 34 minutes! :) It's a 2 400-ft hill. It was really hard, you know. Hahaha. BUT, FUN FUN FUN! :) After the climbing the mountain, we went to the river to be 'baptized' like Jesus.

Blah blah blah.

changed clothes inside the bus and left for Manila.
,,,,
Arrived at 9pm.
Timezone at the fort.
Starbucks.
TULOG.

My whole body's aching right now. T____T

But praise God for yesterday and today. ♥

[pictures are soon to be uploaded at my multiply account. :)]

THE WEEK.

2007-10-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

EK DAY! :))

8.30.
Sausage Mcmuffin and hash brown.
VV BONDING. <3
Pictures.
Rides.
B-boy.
DMNZ.
Amazon Grill.
Ice cream.
Space Shuttle.
Pila pila.
Pete's 'swan forever'.
Change with Shamee.
PEPSI.
P6 french tip.
Mambobosos.
Videos.
Ipod-ing with Kim.
Kwento-es.
6.40.
Schoolbus---

VYC meeting.
BAZAAR the next day.
BAGSAK. PLAKDA. TULOG. :))

VIVIENTTOS.

We had our entrepreneurship today. It was sooo much fun but at the same time really tiring.
RUSH HOURSSSSSS.

-early recess of elem.
-earthquake drill
-limited stock/utensils
-lunch
-2pm dismissal

BUT IT WAS A SUCCESS. :)
Thank you, Lord. <3

OUTBOUND TOMORROW! :D

I love your 'ui'. Hahaha. :))

2007-10-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah yeah.
I chose to blog than to do my fil. writing. Hahaha.

Mygaad. Today was simply tiring. Most of us were out of the class to finish and get four grades for our CA and ofcourse, discuss the kids about the earthquake drill.

It was really really fun cos the grade 1 and 2's were so cooperative and they were really listening to us. :) FUN! :D [i think it's because of the lollies. Haha.]

After a loooonngg day of talking.
Had the chance to be with Mkat, my seatmate. Haha. We went to Glorietta, no, actually it was Landmark to buy things for our bazaar on Thursday. Haha. Carrying those cans, potatoes and stuff, we walked on the other side, SM. Bought stuff again. GAAAAH. The bags were heavy, you know. Haha. We finished at around 6.30 with a little money left. T____T But it's okay, hoping to get high profit on Thursday.:)

EK tomorrow--
it'll be really an educational trip cos while riding the ferris wheel, we have to solve for that math problem. Hahahahaha. What fun. T_T

PINK AND WHITE. ♥

2007-10-14T16:25:00.000+08:00

Okkkkaaaaayyyyy.
DLSU College Entrance Test earlier.
8am-12.30pm

My gally. Hahaha. I was sooo happy because I saw my elementary schoolmates though I really didn't recognise them easily. Hahaha. They look different now. Well maybe, I look different too. Hahahaha.

I also saw my vintage sis, Megann, for the very first time! Hahaha. Though I wasn't really able to chat with her cos we were in our own groups.
Nice to see you, sis. :)

The testing room...
EXIMIUS and some girls from AC. :)

The test...
It's effff... hard. BOW.
But the english and filipino essays were easy. :D

Although I'm not really sure if I want to be in that uni next year, still want to pass. :D
Again, I'm asking for your prayers. :)

Thank God for this day. :)

Dancing with Myself.

2007-10-12T15:10:00.000+08:00

Uh huh. I AM SOOO BORED.

I have a lot of projects to do but I'm too lazy to start writing, making, answering them. Hahahaha. Ohwell.

Physics--long exam. reaction paper. puzzle.
Filipino--talaarawan. [i need 10 entries, i think.]
THE-- icing. weaving thing. bazaar idea.
English--theme writing.
Computer--poster/movie cover.

When laziness strikes, talo ka talaga.

Hayyay. Exams just finished yesterday. Thank God.
Really praying to get pleasing scores this time. :D

DLSU-ET on Sunday. :)
Goodluck, Eximius. See ya.

Hmm. I'm speechless. :))

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I wanna dance with somebody. I wanna feel the heat with somebody! :))

I miss you. :D

And friends, I'm terribly missing the old times. :[

Happy holidays, everyone. :D

Caramel Frappe.

2007-10-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

What a Saturday.
It's like I was thrown away from the earth and landed on Mars.

I woke up at 15 to 1, I think. Ohwell.

Hmmmm. I'm just bored that's why I'm talking in here, though I have nothing to say, really.

Gally. Can't find the words... T_______________________T

It's an emo day today.

I did nothing but to think of that chinese food. :))
Uh, shopao? Hahahaahhaa.

My gally. I really can't understand why I'm going back to my old self. I said I'm okay but the letter he gave made me think too much again.

My god. I'm wanting him back. T____T
Does this make me really stupid? Of course, NOT.
This is love. <3>

I want to talk to him but I just don't have any idea what to say. I want to let him know that perhaps I still feel the same, but I just don't know how to express it. I want to show him that I care, but I just can't move and do something about it.

I think I'm just scared to totally lose him this time.

My friends told me to let him know everything I feel, thinking that I would regret things later, but myself doesn't really want to. They told me to talk to him, but I really can't find things to say. T___T [I'm quiet now when it comes to talking to him. Hahahaha.] I'm not so sure if I really have to say all of these. I'm just hoping that when I tell everyone about this thingy, I'd have peace of mind. hahaha. LABO.

Maybe this is the effect of drinking coffee, eh? corny.

Hayay. I wish I could make things right; I could bring back everything from the past; I could correct all the mistakes I did.

It's been 7 months and close to a year, yet I still feel the same.
Nothing has changed. :|

Oh well. I think I have to stop this shitty thing. Hahahah.
It would make no good. no sense. Hahaha.

I wish I have the powers to capture his <3 again. Hahahaha. :D

Where can I buy a LOVE POTION?
HHAHAHAHAA.

I WILL. ♥

2007-10-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

The Ghettos had their retreat at Don Bosco, Batulao on October 1-3 '07.
It was a success. :)

My Bernadette Family became closer. :) Thank God. ♥

Let me just share the things I've learned from that retreat.

Day 1 with Fr. Chris

On our first day, we talked about happiness.

who can be happy
what can make you happy
why do you have to be happy
how can you be happy

all those questions about happiness.

Happiness-- it happens when you're doing something else. You attain it if you work for them; if you do something just to be happy. It will not come to you unless you ask and work hard for it. As for our age, we cannot have this 'true' happiness because we are still exploring things; we are still growing; we are still gaining experiences.

Fr. Chris left us with the 10 keys to happiness:
1. We have to accept ourselves as we are. [self-acceptance]
2. Assume full responsibility for our lives-- 'this is my life. It is my own. I am responsible of how it will turn out to be. I am the one who's going to run my OWN life. Nobody cares and will care.'

Having full responsibility is connected with choosing. We all have our choices.
You may choose to live by yourself or live with someone; you may choose to drown yourself with alcohol and smoke or keep yourself busy shopping. Everything depends on you because this is your life.

Choices haves elements: self awareness, imagination, formed conscience and independent will.
"I AM FREE TO MAKE A CHOICE."

3. Look after our needs.
4. Make our lives an act of love--in other words, 'we must love.' Love is a verb. It is a 'doing'. You have to love to live and to be truly happy.
"The measure of love is the love without measure."
5.Stretch by moving our of our comfort zones--in reality, we cannot just stay in our house, we have to experience different things. We cannot just have 'pasarap' in life. We should get out of our cages and try new things. We do not have to feel comfortable in one thing. We have to let our bodies cry, laugh and weep. [gets niyo ba? haha.]
6. Learn to communicate effectively--speak with sense. talk in a nice way. be sensitive. :)
7. Enjoy the good things in life--thank God for all the beautiful things that happens in His gift.
8. Be good finders--be positive.
9. Seek growth not perfection--GROW. People commit mistakes and you just have to learn from it. Don't be stuck on what you've done in the past. Move forward and live a new life.
10. Make prayer a part of your daily life--to be truly happy, you need the help of God. Ask and thank Him for everything.

*do not give up easily in life.
*move on.
*don't be afraid of making mistakes. What's important is that you learn from them.
**"life asks for every individual a contribution and it is up to that individual to discover what it should be"--Viktor Frankl
*take risks.
*"Growth begins when blaming ends."
*"I AM IN-CHARGE."

--"Listen to what I'm not saying."

4 elements in Listening:
= open ear
= open heart
= integrity- "I bring my whole self to the situation."
= commitment

I may not have stated here everything but these points inspired me a lot. :) I hope it'd inspire you too or perhaps help you. :D

Day 2 with Fr. Ding

DECISION
== self-others-God
"Love is always to give."
== Freedom-- it is not to do the right thing or the bad thing but to do what is right and good.

Sessions with Fr. Ding was more on reflections. I was able to realise a lot of things; people come and go but I still have a life to live. Cherish the people around you while they're still here. :)

Day 3 with Fr. Chris and Fr. Ding-- last activity, songs, pictorial, Holy Mass, goodbye's. Thank you, Fathers. :) I'll never forget you. :D

nagliliyab kami. :))

2007-09-29T18:42:00.000+08:00

LIYAB '07-- Journalism seminar-workshop
September 27-28 at PNU.

Ayoko nang magkwento. Hahaha. I'm speechless.
Basta super fun. :)
Had a chance to bond with the other students. 2nd and 3rd year students! :D

Learned a lot too! :D Fun fun fun! :D
My pleasure to be one of the participants. :)

Thanks to Ms. Labs, Mrs. AAC and Ms. Asis. :D

for more pictures---- http://blaanncchhee.multiply.com/ [for my contacts only. :D]

RETREAT ON MONDAY! :D
Don Bosco, Batulao. :)

I'd be gone for 3 days. SOooo bye bye for now. :)
Take care. :D

teh love. ♥

2007-09-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

All right.

USTET DAY TODAY! :D

Gaaaah. My excitement makes my brain... Uh, what's the word? See, I told you.
Blangko ako like earlier.

Fine. Let's start.

I woke up at 7. Too early, eh? :))
Prepared myself for CSR Grade School's Family Day. [gad. long title.]

Okay, blangko again. T_____T Demmet.

Games, dances, chikas, bolas...

End of the family day. Hahaha. That's how quick it was. Nye.
Well actually, it ended by 10.30 because of the rain. Games were stopped.
Awww, poor them. Hahahaha.

My outreach friends played their xylophones, basses and... whatever you call it. Basta, their band. OK? Yes.

It's 40 past 10 in the morning.
Went to Powerplant to have an early lunch.
I told my dad that we had to leave the mall by 11 just to make sure I won't be late for my USTET at 1pm.

BUT...there's a BUT!

Ordered my orders. :)) Yuck. English, mehn.
Left my dad just to buy a shirt. Pawis na ko e. [joke joke.] YIKES. :))
Got back and ate that chicken curry. It was sooo delicious but I was too full to finish it. Hahahaha. :DD

After having lunch, Addie and I went together to go 'window-shopping'. My dad went to look around by himself.
My gally. Window was slashed. The shopping remained. Hahaha.
Get it? Yeah. Very Good.

I have no idea why I went shopping on an exam day. Hahaha.
Fast forward....

Audz kept on calling me already. It's past 12. My my.
Even my dad was calling us, too.
And my mom was calling my dad. Hahahaha.
We're late. I know.

Soooooooooo... TRAVEL............

Demmet. The traffic was too slow. Trucks showed themselves up. GRR.
"I'm sooo dead.", I thought.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

Arrived in UST at around 12.45. Gosh.
My whole body was trembling.
Veins, muscles and even my bones were shaking.
EFFFF. Why was I soooo nervous?

Simple. I want to get in in this UNI. Haha.

Thought I had to reschedule my test but no no no. :))
I was able to make it.
Had the test for ffiivvee loooonnggg hours.
It was fun, though.
BECAUSE! it was cold. Hahahahaha.

FAST FORWARRRRRRRRRRDDDDDDDD.

It's 5 pm. The test was over.
Thank God.
I was really wishing and praying that I'd pass.

And you know what? Of course, not. :))

Test results will be released on MY BIRTHDAY.
How good is that?

Pray for me, people. :)
Oh and praise God for this day.

[whatta long entry. this doesn't end here, actually. but you'd be too bored to read. so tata for now. :) have a good night, everyone.]

Taekwondo Feet

2007-09-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'm sure I'm feeling soooo sooo muchhh better now. Haha!
Thank God, He has healed me. :D
Though I still have colds and cough. Ohwell.

Tonight is the night. :))
I just got home from High Street. [the ultimate tambayan]
Had dinner, played at Timezone, nailpaint shopping for Tita X and Raisa. :)
[Their late birthday gifts. :))]

Hmm. What can I say?
I'm a bit hyper tonight. Maybe because of the 80's music earlier.
And maybe because of the cold weather these nights. :))
Oh oh oh. I need someone to hug me. LOL.

.................

I started reading chicken soup. And it's true, it enlightens you.
Because yeah, it is starting to enlighten me! Hahaha.
I'm living life at its fullest. I think.
Though tough moments come, ...when I think of him.
Yeah, I call it tough now. :))

Hmmm. But still, I can't refuse the fact that I still **** you. Diba? Of course.

Hayay. Enough.

Weirdo.

2007-09-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

IT'S PAST MIDNIGHT.

I'm supposed to be sleeping already. T___T
I'm sick, I know but random things are going through my mind right now.

A guy, whom I thought was a friend from the start, has fallen from the sky. I got him stuck on the clouds, not letting him fall to the ground. Because once he falls, I may or may not save him.

He's always there, never intends to leave my planet.
He listens though I always talk about Mars.
Mars, who is playing numb never feels what I, Venus, feel. [Of course, he's numb.]

Let's name my friend, Pluto.

Pluto [not Mickey's pet] accepts whatever I say. He even gives me advices and comforts me every time my planet sings in the rain.
He sometimes complains but still goes with me along.

My planet is scared.
Scared of pushing Pluto away.
My planet never wants to hurt other planets. She just wants to love them but Mars doesn't want to let her go.
She is still locked in Mars' heart. She cannot get out.
She's like Rapunzel in the tower,
Sleeping Beauty sleeping in the tomb,
And Fiona, guarded by the dragon.

The bottom line is...
Venus is still madly in-love with Mars.
BOW.

I really don't know the sense of this one. Hahahahaha. :))
WEIRD, eh?

CARROT CAKE

2007-09-17T18:51:00.000+08:00

My groupmates are so sweet. Hahaha. love them. :)
Pinadalhan nila ko ng carrot cake na ginawa namin.
Awww. Walalng.
Thanks, guys. :)
I love you. ♥

♥

2007-09-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

"So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be"

"Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But youre telling me it wont be enough"

BLAH BLAH BLAH.
It's too early to be emo.
Hahahahaha.

Anyway, I was home all day.
RESTING. :))

I'm still not feeling very good.
Three days of headache and fever.
NOT GOOD.

Not in the mood to blog din. haha.
ohwell.
Bye bye for now. :P

I miss you :P

It's over and done.

2007-09-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

Okay. Things just happen.
We don't know where, when and why.

This week, for me, was just plainly tears and sadness. Nyahaha. 'kidding.
But hm, sort of.
I cried. I laughed.

Anyways, I'm into something else.
My focus now is theatre arts! [amp.]
So guys, please support me. Hahahaha.

Serious mode:
For now, I just want to let things pass... I'm starting to realise that all the things I did were just worthless. And I really don't deserve this emo-ness. Haha. I just have to stop and let someone do something for me. Perhaps, I've had enough. I'm glad I am waking up. But I'm still not closing my doors. So guyyysss, don't be scared to knock... I'm willing to lend you my keys.
Gad. Baduy. Haha.

So much for that.

It's Friday, so I was in heels. [wala lang.]
Dismissal was 4 but I had to attend the rehearsals.
Roles were finalized.
Don't be shocked, I'm the stepmother. :))
Magtataray nanaman ako! T_T

I was out by 6.30pm.

My schoolbus team had this 'bonding' experience.
Tita X and I were singing Paramore songs.
Raisa was night-dreaming. :))
Xandz was singing with us too.
Emgee was worried with what to wear tomorrow and Abby was just laughing at us.
What fun, right? Yes, it is. Hahaha.
Got home by 8 and had dinner.
That's it.

Whew. Tired.
Sorry, I'm the only one who can understand this entry.
Hahahahaa.
SABOG, mehn. :]]

I'd be happy if you'd talk to me. :D
ASA KA PA!

I need an inspiration. ♥

2007-09-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

Okay okay. :)) I'm a bit hyper today.
But not in the mood to write something sensible. Haha. :P

Morning:
Our adviser told us yesterday that she would be announcing our ranks today.
And yes, she did after her "pambibitin". [lecture and seatwork]
Hahaha.

TENTENENENTENEN!!!

Omg. I was so nervous. My hands were trembling. [Actually not. Haha.]
I was shocked with the averages of my other classmates.
Everyone's low this year unlike the previous years.

[drum roll...]

My rank's 4.5. Ka-tie ko si Jo.
Haha. As usual.
But yeah, still super happy because eight of us are running for honours. [too bad, not 10.]
Yess. :))

[Sorry but I'm just happy. Haha.]

OKAY. ENOUGH.

I wrote something again during Eco time. :))
Pasaway. [yeah, i know.]

10.23AM
I'm bored. And yeah, I'm being naughty. Haha! We're currently talking about the factors that influence the elasticity of supply blah blah---technology, expectation, no. of sellers, costs, price of related products, subsidy.

Wala lang. I'm having random thoughts right now.
I can't stop thinking about the 'inspiration' thingo. Haha
Woah. We're in expectation pa lang. TAGOS. :))
Anyway, back to what I was talking about.
I told Eesah what I knew last night.
And she was like, "ayaw niya sa luma?:))"

Oo nga, ayaw mo ba sa luma? Hahaha.

That's all. BOW.
I'll listen muna. :))

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♥

2007-09-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD.

Uploaded new pictures and like, OMG. Hahahaha.
Being emo---->> falling again. Haha.
Do I just go for the looks lang?
NO NO NO.
But I think my stupidity is back. :))

Hahaha. Labo.

I'M FALLING EVEN MORE INLOVE WITH YOU. <3
I promise. :)

Gets niyo? Hindi. :))

Post-entry. Haha. ♥

2007-09-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

26 August 2006
Sunday

07.35 AM
My god. The test hasn't started. T___T Although I'm inside the classroom already, we're still waiting for it to be filled. By the way, I'm currently here in Ramon Magsaysay High school to take the PMA entrance exam. Too bad, I don't know anyone here. Haha.

The room has no a/c, windows are widely open and the sun is striking through my skin. There are only 3 girls at the moment, including me, of course. Haha. And 9 boys plus one who has just arrived. I hope to be friends with them laterrrr. Hee! :D

My dad asked one of the facilitators earlier, the test proper would probably start after lunch! So I have no idea of what to do this morning. T___T Probably sit here alone or make chitchats with new friends. One more thing, I have no idea where and what to eat! This is my first time to go to this place. I can see the train passing; hear the never-ending honks of the trucks and buses. Whew! I don't know what I'll be at the end of the day. Hahaha.

9.12 AM
WALA PA RING TEST! Oha! My goodness! The test will really be starting in the afternoon. Still got no one to talk to. T___T LONER! Yes, I know. Oh well! There’s this cute guy behind me. Wahahaha. [I’m entertaining myself, okay? :))] So yeah, he’s cute but too serious. Well well well. I’m after the cuteness lang! Hahahaha.

I should’ve come late! T___T I’m hungry, exhausted and feeling very sick already. Sun is not striking but there’s still no ventilation in here. HOTNESS.

This would be a very long day guys.
Good luck to me. :))

(That was the end of what I wrote on my magic notebook. Hahahaha.)

And I don’t have plans to tell you everything. This entry’s too long already. You’ll be sick reading it. Haha.
That’s all, folks!
Have a good night. :D

Opppsssiieee, I almost forgot.
It's BESTIE's birthday today! :)
Happy happy birthday, Ian dude. Hahaha. :P
i miss you.

God is Love. ♥

2007-08-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

I went to visit my youngest brother, Coby, at the hospital. Heard that he has water in his lungs. =(( Ohwell. I trust that God will heal him.

....

I read him books, played with him, chatted and fed him. I knew he was very happy. By nine, we decided to go home and just visit him the next day. His jolly face turned into a 'fake' smile. He was sad, I know. And I could see in his eyes that he wanted to cry. I, too, but I had to show him how to be strong, so I did.

He's a brave boy. He'll recover soon.
I have a great faith in God.
Praise Him.

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Early this morning, I also heard that my great grandmother in the States died.
May she rest in peace.
I'll miss her.

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Now, it's about me.
I'm doing fine. That's it. Haha.
Gaaah. Mixed Emotions.
I miss Coby. =((

BLAM. ♥

2007-08-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

It's Saturday. :)
Lovin' this day. Haha. :D

Thank God. :)

Oh well. Last night was 'okay'. I think. I cried because of something stupid. Well maybe, I just LOVE hurting myself. I ask questions that shouldn't be asked. Haha. CURIOSITY GUYS.

And there was this person who answered me. Truthfully, perhaps.
I wasn’t so sure if what he said was the truth or plainly out of his irritation.
Still hurts, though. :(

When I woke up, I received a message from him. Tears wanted to fall.
Don’t ask me why, I just don’t know.

Now, I want to stop myself from aching. Talking. Being open.
I just really want to shut my mouth from saying or asking things that I believe will hurt me again.

TO YOU:
What you’ve said and done was enough.
And don’t worry; I’ll try my best to stay away from you.
FOR NOW. Heee.
Maybe months later, I’d be okay.
I’d be happy like what you are right now. :D
Good luck. See you in a couple of months!
Haha. ;p

Your Guardian Angel

2007-08-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

I sooo love this song. ♥ though it makes me cry all the time. :)
This one's for you! <3

YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know Ill find deep inside me, I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
Ill be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Its ok, Its ok, Its ok

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cause you're my
You're my
My true love
My whole heart
Please don't throw that away

Cause I'm here, for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know Ill be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

stupid and careless.

2007-08-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

Oh yes. That's who I am. Goooodddd.
STUPID AND CARELESS.

Ohwell.
Anyways, no classes again tomorrow! :D
5 days vacation. WOW.
But goodluck to the supertyphoon. ;p

Ampy, Diz, Bet and I won't be able to submit DLSU and UST forms on Saturday.
Tsk tsk tsk.
Better luck next week. Hahahaha.

Gaaah. How come some people are insensitive?

HEY. <3

2007-08-10T22:51:00.000+08:00

Okay. Today was actually the day of… I have no idea! =)) We had our maths test and yes, it was easy. :)) Sana ganun na lang palagi yung test. Hahaha. By four, I had my catechism again with those cute kids. I just love them because I just feel so close to them. Nye. =)) But seriously, yes though we only see each other on Fridays. Haha!

I got home by 6 then slept. :D
One more thing, I’m having my allergies. T___T
I couldn’t stop sneezing. Hahaha.

AUGUST 09, 2007

hey hey you you, i could be your girlfriend. :))

I'm bored. Well, I'm always bored. Exams are over and I feel so free now. Actually not.

There are things that make me think too much again. Take note: negatively. : I'm really hating this feeling. I get to hurt others just because of one person. Imagine that? Ohwell. That person's insensitive. Hate you. Hahaha. [I'm being ironic, okay? =))]

Although I really feel bad at this very moment, I feel like dancing. Weirdness. And yeah, this is why I'm hot. Hahahaha. :))
And baby do you wanna like this? like this? like this?

Gaaaah. I'm not myself right now. Pardon me.
Random shit. :

Oh oh well well. School's back tomorrow. Gala day.
Maths test AGAIN.
Goodluck to me. To us.
ilysm. <3

saayyy whaaaattt?

Nutri-Musical Skit. :)

2007-07-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY YOU YOU YOU SHOULD EAT A GULAY! :))

NUTRITION MONTH CELEBRATION WAS A BLAST! :D

The day started really good.
My batch won the speak-for-a-star (Mrs. AAC cried because of this! Haha. Tears of joy. Awww.)
then we also won the two highest places in the musical skit. :D
LOVE IT.
Thank you, Lord. ♥

BUT, next week's hell.

This Monday, I have 3 unit tests; Math, Physics and Economics. WOW. T_______T
On Tuesday, 3 periodical tests and a unit test in Filipino. THANK YOU TALAGA. :))
Wednesday to Friday is the exam proper.
Saturday, entrance exam at UP.

Hayyay.
Goodluck to me.
Congratulations, EXIMIUS.
I LOVE YOU. <3

BLAH. ♥

2007-07-22T12:06:00.000+08:00

Blah blah blah.

It's Sunday. :))
Happy birthday to Mitch.

I didn't attend the Leadership Training. Haha.
I'm bored. I don't want to write.

Next week is the cramming week.

Quizzes, unit tests, submission of projects, college application forms and nutrition month celebration. T____T

I miss you. I don't.
I love you. Before?
Hahahahaha.
Weirdo. :)

It's the 24th tomorrow! :)
Happy birthday to Jaena.

I hope something unexpected will happen. :))
Well, I don't want to expect nor hope. REALLY. :))

Sooo soo long. :))

2007-07-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

Long looonngg time noooo no entry! haha. :)
A lot of things just happened. :)

School's ordinary. Yes it is. :D

Today is Sunday and I haven't done my physics report. Haha. :))

Last Friday, Quishie visited us. :D We stayed at Powerplant and saw Ms. Bayani and Ms. Suelto there. :) THEY MET LEMY!!! haha. :)) Naaaliw parin ako dun. Swear. :D

Last night, I got kind of embarassed again. Don't want to tell you the story. Hahaha. But despite of that, I really miss you. :)

Monday: F2- Assist F1 in pulling the flag. :))
Friday: Mass Commentator. :)
Heels Day? :))

Gosh, not really in the mood to blog! haha. :p
Ohwell, see ya! :D

"LOVE IS GIVING; BUT NOT TO THE POINT OF SACRIFICING YOUR SELF-WORTH AND SELF-RESPECT." ~Ms. Suelto. :)

["Ayoko nang ma-inlove ulit sa iba. Siya ay tama na para sa akin."]

24 Things. :D

2007-05-25T15:59:00.000+08:00

Okay. I don't know what's going on with me right now. :/
I'm really missing the old times. :/

24 Things I Miss:
--I miss you because you always make me smile.
--I miss kidding around with you.
--I miss talking to you.
--I miss your hugs and kisses.
--I miss our sweet nothings.
--I miss the special feeling you made me feel.
--I miss being loved by you.
--I miss texting with you.
--I miss teasing you.
--I miss you because you care.
--I miss our sweet arguments.
--I miss your expressions.
--I miss your face.
--I miss you because I love you.
--I miss you when you're being Mr. F. :))
--I miss the way you talk.
--I miss your voice.
--I miss singing with you.
--I miss your corny jokes.
--I miss your laugh.
--I miss you because you're sometimes cheesy.
--I miss your looonngg 'mwaaaaah'. Haha.
--I miss everything about you.
--I miss you because you were my keso/shoti/paotoise.

Gaaaah. First time. It's hard to think twenty four things! Haha. :)
Hay. I just miss Pao a lot... :( It's been 6 days without any communication with him and it feels like 6 years. Bam!!! "nyee, baduy! hehe"
But yeah. I know this doesn't mean anything to him.
Just want everybody to know. Hee. :D
...though it's kind of worthless. :/

Happy/Sad 24. :)

2007-05-24T15:38:00.000+08:00

Whoa. It's the 24th. I just feel like posting something non-sense in here. Haha. :D

I was talking to Bettina and Nicole last night. Gaaah. Nicole. Haha. :)) It was fun but then time came when things flashed back again. Haha. Ohwell.
After talking to them, Eesah called me up and listened to whatever I was saying.

--It's supposedly 17 months already. OHWELL. Haha.

At 30 past 2, Cammy called me and we talked about random things.
...fell asleep.

---I am feeling much better now, guys. Thanks for worrying. Hahaha. :D
---The 24th day of every month was a special day for me ages ago. :) But now, maybe just an ordinary day. :[

---If I could just win you back, I promise to make it better. :)

Happy Anniversary to my beloved parents. :)

+changed my layout into something decent. Haha. Got sick of the old one. :D

With all her heart and soul, she prays.

2007-05-21T16:12:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously bored. T__T And I super hate it.

"All I can think about is you. The way you say you love me too and everytime I close my eyes, I see your face. My love can never be erased and you can never be replaced."

She is doing too much thinking. The only time she doesn't think is when she sleeps. But in her sleep, she dreams of him.
She makes people think she is okay but no one believes her.

These things makes her more scared than ever.

She feels like sooner or later, she'll be mentally-illed. And, that is, because of him.
She knows she's being stupid but she just can't resist her stupidity.
She expects a lot than before, but she knows her expectations will bring her down.
She thinks of planning, but she doesn't know how to start.

She wants to move on, but she just can't.

Loving him makes her hate herself.
All the love is for him. Nothing left for herself.

With all her heart and soul, she prays for the scars of her heart to be healed.

Blast. :D

2007-05-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

12-13 May

Eesah's and Ionne's birthday celebration! It was soo much fun.. AGAIN. Haha! Ohwell, I just love being with them. :)

SUMMARY:
--Glorietta. The usual place.
--Starbucks
--Surprised Eesah. WOW. Haha.
--Shopping.
--Big Grill

It ended there. No, it didn't. Birthday super friends were the one who should be surprised by things. But I was the one surprised. Eesah, "set" me up again. :) Well, Ampy was 'set' as well. Haha!

Yes, I was surprised.
The surprise: Presence of someone

The presence of that someone didn't make me feel good, seriously. It brought me tons of pain and buckets of tears. Wow.

And every time this happens, I'm melting and I’m losing all I that have.

Anyway, we went to Eesah's house by 30 past 10. :) Slept at 5 to 6 in the morning. :) What fun. :)

Happy birthday to both of you, again. :) I love you, girls.

15 May

Meeting with the VYC.
Nothing much happened. But I was still playing the role of being a "Drama Queen".
Tears. tears. tears.
Thank you for making me feel this feeling. :)

16 May

Induction of officers. Fun. :)
I'm soo excited for the 20th to 21st. We might be having a Medical Mission at Crow Valley, Tarlac. :)
I just loovee outreach programs. :D

Moving on.

2007-05-11T14:40:00.000+08:00

I'm not happy. And, I'm close to giving up. God. I want to cry. I'm trying to do my best to bring back everything. But, I am failing or should I say, I failed. Well, I shouldn't be hoping nor expecting things from him, in the first place.

I have plans, but they're just plans. How can I do those without his presence? I might be over-acting. But honestly,

I'm losing hope.
I'm losing him.
I lost him.

Shooot. I'll wake up, and he's totally gone.

It's not easy to move on, but I think that's what I have to do right now. This very moment.

Hay. Shit happens.
Why do people find it easy to move on while I don't?

I soooo.... ♥

2007-05-08T17:18:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY was the day. Haha. :)

I went to the hospital to have my x-ray evaluated and my eyes checked.

…

My spine isn’t straight. Hee. ;p I have to have a therapy to prevent my back from having scoliosis. But yeah, I’m close to it. :( I also have this protruding bone in my chest in which I had my x-ray for the second time yet, they still didn’t see what it really is. Wow, haha! :D
Anyway, I’ll be having my therapy tomorrow. :D

My eyes! For the past two years, my eye grade was just 75/50. Then on November, it became 175/125. Now, after six months, it’s 250/175. What the hell am I doing with my eyes? I’m getting blind. Haha. Well honestly, I’m not happy.

Having eyeglasses all the time is just not good. Seriously.
Having a blurred vision without glasses is not not not good. :/
And wearing glasses just makes you less attractive. Haha.

Hmm. Maybe you’d think, “Why don’t you wear contact lenses?” I want to, but my mom doesn’t.
Oh oh well well. Haha.
And guys, I have this HUGE crush on my optometrist. <3 He’s sooo cute. Nyahaha. AND! It kind of reminds me of someone. :D

That’s all.

Vv-licious Day TODAY. :))

For when I dream, I dream of you... <3

2007-05-04T16:27:00.000+08:00

I woke up at around 30 past 2 in the afternoon because I slept at 5 in the morning. I was busy talking to Ampy, not on reminiscing things but discussing things about LIFE. Wow. We're maturing. Haha kidding. :)

Anyway, I had a very good dream. Really. Haha.
It was sooo much fun.

Highlight: (haha)
--I was in Thailand and our flight back to Manila was cancelled.
--I was with my bestfriend, bestfriend's boyfriend and ex-boyfriend. [Wow. Lovin' the boyfriend word. Nyaha. Joke.]
--I had two celebrity friends with.
--That's all. Thank you. Haha. Don't want to tell you the whole story. It's mine to keep. ;p

[And, someone whose intrigued about my dream last night might read this. Hahaha.]

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Yesterday, the VYC officers had their meeting again. It was again and again, sooo much fun. :) I'm starting to love being with them. Nyahaha. :))

Today, we were, I think, supposed to be inducted but no calls nor messages of 'decent casual' were received and passed on. Haha. Ohwell.

Spiderman Hangover. :))

2007-05-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

We watched Spiderman3 yesternight. :) It was cool. Love it. <3

--I currently feel nostalgic or perhaps, just bored right now. @_@

--I read my old testies for a former love and I'm missing those times soo much. ;( It's been two months yet, I haven't moved on. Still hoping. Still waiting for chances. :/
--From Spiderman, WE ALWAYS HAVE CHOICES. [And I chose to wait. :/]
--I might talk to my Bestie later. He'll give me a lesson. I think. Haha. I'm scared. Nyahaha.

--Luffy taffy? I can't remember the story behind this. Really.
--Pepsi, Mommy, Shobe, Shomay, Pusa, Blanchetoise, Ate, Honey, Pare, Purple Haze. ETC.
--Darn it. I miss you, badly. :-(

D MODE

2007-04-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

Chapter 3 [?]

She doesn't know what to do nor think any longer. All she knows is, she has already moved on yet everything has changed again in an instant. She’s been happy but now, she is drowning in tears once more.

One night, they talked over the phone after almost a month. It was unusual because for the past month, they were just using a messenger and playing games around the internet. They were ‘friends’ after being enemies and after being two people in-love with each other.

The following day, they decided to meet up to talk about certain things. Well, she really didn’t have any thoughts what they would talk about. For all she knew was, they were good friends. No special love. No malice. No different attraction. So, nothing ‘special’ or ‘important’ to talk about.

Hours passed and they were still in the same place. No talking happened because they were busy with their own group of friends.

Fast forward.

She got drunk, so drunk that she didn’t know what she had said to the people she was with. Did not know what she had done. She was actually not herself that time.

Finally, after about two hours, drunkenness was defeated.

She went home at her friend’s house and found him there. They tried to talk but still, nothing happened.

:

It was a Sunday night. They talked over the phone AGAIN. Truth came out. He said he was supposed to tell her something the night they were together, which for her was special but again and again, it was unspoken. Untold.

[Gosh. Don’t want to go into details. Haha! Anyway…]

They talked non-stop about the things that happened. Love and jealousy was merely the main topic.

But those talks were useless. Worthless. Rubbish.

…

He made her believe that he’d come back.
He made her believe that he’d let himself share the love he has for her.
He made her believe that he’s true.

Thanks to you for not thinking what she might have felt.
Thanks to you for playing with her emotions.
Thanks to you for telling her those goddamn things.

[She’s not mad. She just wants to let go of the sadness locked in her heart. Hoping you’ll understand her. Help her, she doesn’t need space.]

The Woah Days.

2007-04-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

20 APRIL 07

It was Friday. Vv went to Glorietta to bond. Haha. Finally, I saw Quisha again after almost three months! Hee. Too bad Ionne wasn't able to come. :-( Well, I just missed my friends soo much. :D Awww.

Gosh. I have no idea what to say anymore. T_T

Hmm. We looked around, as we always do and then went to Icebergs to eat ice cream. :)) Camwhoring.

As we planned, dinner time, @ W.

......

That was it. : No other comments. :)) That experience, for me, was the worst yet the funniest. God. Mixed emotions. :/

Oh, we met new friends. :) Thanks to them for saving our lives. Nyahaha. :))

At around 11 in the evening, Kuya Alvin picked us up. Thank you. :)
We first brought Bettina home then went straight to Eesah's house. FUN. Stayed in the attic with our beloved friends. Haha. Nice seeing them, again. :)

.....

Slept at 6 in the morning, woke up at 30 past 12, i think.

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TWO UNFORGETTABLE DAYS IN MY LIFE. :)

for pictures--- [contacts only.]

http://blaanncchhee.multiply.com/photos/album/75

22 APRIL 07

HAPPY ''SWEET'' 16 TO MY BAO BAO. [BETTINA] ILY.

FUn. :-)

2007-04-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the VYC General Assembly and bonfire activity. It was sooo much fun. :) I really enjoyed it a lot. :D

The new set of officers were introduced. I was appointed to be the secretary.
My pleasure. :)

Gee. That's all I can say. I lost my entry for this topic. T_T I don't know where it is now. :-(

But, I really thank God for yesterday and today as well. :)

NO title. :D

2007-04-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

Good Friday: We went to Lipa to visit Mt. Carmel Church. :)
Black Saturday: Malling. :D

Easter Sunday tomorrow! :)
It's Jesus's Resurrection. ;D

Hmm. I think our village won't have Easter egg-hunting tomorrow. T.T Ohwell, I think it'll be next week. Weee. :)

Oh gosh, earlier, I tried answering puzzles from weffriddles.com and my mind was like, not working properly.:)) I saw it from Lemy's stat so I tried but nothing happened. I still asked him to give me more clues till I came up with the answers. Haha! He's in level 54 point something. He's just tooo smart. Haha! When I reached level 13, I gave up. I just couldn't do it. :)) Ohwell. Maybe I'm not the person who loves riddles and puzzles. Well honestly, I don't want to think. Haha!

Sorry for this non-sense entry. I just can't think. My brain suddenly jumped out from my head and scattered itself on the floor. ;))

HAPPY EASTER. ;)

:D

2007-04-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

It's Maundy Thursday today. :)

Okay, I don't know where to start. T.T Hmm..

Yesterday, My family and I visited my childhood friend who was accidentally hit by a van. He was still in the ICU when we went there. I really didn't expect to see him that way; lying in bed with the oxygen on and had stitches on his head, chin and upper lip. I pity him but I admire him for being strong. He still forced himself to talk to us. He was even trying to make us laugh. :D Anyway, he also has blood clotting on his head and still has the possibility to undergo brain surgery. I really pray that he won't because I knew that people who undergo brain surgery have only twenty percent chance to live. And he's too young to be with Him in heaven. Well, don't want to mention every single detail. :) I just hope, really hope that he'll soon be fine. Help me to pray for him. :)

Today was okay. It's Maundy Thursday and it's Jesus last supper with the Apostles. Our family visited different churches and prayed together in His name. I also got to see the beauty of Manila. :) WOW. :)

We ate merienda at Fish and Co. and then went to Bonifacio High Street to chill out. [we're always there! Haha.] Decided to go home and relaxed though I did biking for about fifteen minutes. Haha! :)

Tomorrow's Good Friday. :) Jesus will die to save us from our sins. As an offering, let's just pray and thank Him for all the blessings he has given us. :D

God has given His only son for mankind to save them from their sinfulness.

:)

2007-03-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm. I haven't blogged for almost a week now. I think. :) Nothing exciting has been happening. All is some sort of... BLAH. Anyway...

People who are just too proud of themselves shouldn't live in this wonderful world. People who think that they look awesome and the best are the ones who are actually not what they think. They're pathetic. POOR THEM. :D Let's just pray for them to realise who and what they really are.

Hoping they'll learn how to knock their heads. :)

This poem has no connection with my entry above. :) I just feel like posting it. :)

It Hurts Everytime

It hurts everytime I hear your name
Remembering how you played the game
Looking back on the tears I had
Cursing you to be eternally sad

It hurts everytime I think of you
Especially the moments when we're happy and blue
In one corner, I sit and cry
Feeling that my heart is totally dry

It hurts everytime I see your face
Just want to kick your ass off this race
Wishing you the best as you go on your life
Stay away forever or I'll cut you with a knife. ♥

I hate boredom. T.T

2007-03-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

Okay. I'm sooo like bored. T.T I have nothing to do and I have no idea how to enjoy my life. I can't even think what to write. BOOO! I hate it. Nyhaha. My friends are out and I have no idea if they're home already. I have random thoughts today, so forgive me. :)

I am really bored though I was a bit busy awhile, preparing dinner. :) I was like in the show 30-minute meal. Haha. :) I cooked three dishes in 30 minutes! Brilliant! Haha. :) Oh well.

What else?

Grrr. I am really really bored. :) My phone's very quiet unlike before and I'm missing it. :) My ym's quiet, too cos my stat is in 'stepped out'. HaHa. Tsk. NON-sense.

I feel sad because I am bored or perhaps, I'm bored because I'm sad.

Ugh. Confusion. :)

Fun, fun, fuuunnnn! :D

2007-03-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

Weee. :) I had super fun this day. :D My family and I had an outing somewhere with my Dad's office mates. Hmm. As usual, I didn't swim. I just had a concert for two and a half hours. Nyahaha. :)) Beat that? :)) At first, I was so shy to sing because there was a lot of people but then after singing one song, I didn't stop anymore until my voice broke out. Haha. Shame. I thought nobody wanted to sing but when I put the microphone and song book down, someone got it and sang. Haha. Well, they didn't tell me that they wanted to sing! :)) After having a 'concert', I felt really really tired and hungry. Haha. :))

Okay, fast forward...:))

We ate dinner at The Fort. :) Separated from boys and girls. My mom, sister and I ate at Sushi-ya while my dad, bro and little bro, ate at Giligan's, I think. Haha. Walked around at Serendra and bought stuff. :) My sister, mom and I bought Crocs. :) Weee. Fun! :)) I got the ballet flats again with the strawberry pin on it. Yahoo. :))

By 30 past 9, we decided to go home. :) Getting sick of Krispy Kreme so we didn't buy anymore. Nyahaha. :)

That's it. :D

Thank you, Lord. :)

What A Day. :D

2007-03-16T21:35:00.000+08:00

I woke up around 12.30 and did everything I had to do. I was kind of bored yet when the moon started to show up, there was something exciting or perhaps annoying and strange happened. My childhood friends came to visit me earlier. They were very noisy but I was happy to see them again. :) An hour later, my 'uncle' who happened to be my enemy, came. I was really annoyed cos he was not allowed to go inside our house but he did. Damn. He has the thickest face ever!~ He went in and hugged me. He didn't say a single word. He looked at me and I just said, "yes?". Still, he did not say anything. I was shocked. :O After all the things he did, does he think a hug can melt my heart?

Oh, F him. A hug isn't enough. It takes time and this is not yet the right time to forget everything. I may not forget what he did but atleast to forgive him right now? I can't.

Maybe I'm still waiting for the magic word. :)

Last Day of School. [for them. haha.]

2007-03-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

OMG. I feel lazy to tell you everything that happened yesterday. :) I'll just give the summary. Haha. :D

♥ My friends and I met up in Glorietta, too bad Ionne wasn't able to come as well as Quisha.
♥ Played in Timezone the whole afternoon.
♥ Ian came. Haha. We missed him. :)
♥ We used his timezone card to play dance revo and guitar freaks. Haha. USERS. j/k.
♥ I went home at around 9.30.
♥ Starbucks with parents.
♥ A shitty thing happened. Or it was like, I ______ to a shitty animal. Ergh. X)
♥ Slept at 3 in the morning. T.T

Gr. I hate it. I don't know how to write. Don't even know how to express what I feel right now. T.T

It just sucks. T.T

[happy 15 to Nikka and Edizza.]

It's not my job. :)

2007-03-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

That's Not My Job
by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

This's a story about four people: Everybody, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody.

There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought Anybody could do it but Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it.

It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody have done.

I love this short story. :) It's about selfishness. :)

Family Trip. :)

2007-03-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

GREAT. :) I had a very good time with my family today. :D My mum woke me up early and so my other siblings. :) We didn't know that they were planning to go somewhere different cos we're always bonding around the every mall! Haha. So we prepared ourselves and drove to Tagaytay. :D Relaxed, ate at Taal Vista Hotel, took photos, wondered about the crater of the volcano, and a lot lot lottttt moooreee. :D

At around four in the afternoon, my two little siblings were soo excited to go horse-riding. AGAIN. So we went there. :) After an hour, we decided to go home but bought some fruits first. :)

TRAVELLED... tra..ve..ll..eedd...

We had dinner in Alabang, window-shopped a little and rode the bump car for a while.

Oh, Josh and I bought dance step something for PS2. Haha! So I can exercise more often. Haha. The CD was good cos you get to choose or insert your own CD for your own type of music and the songs installed were modern. :) It was really fun. :)

Hm, I think that's just about it. :) I'm a bit tired and still gotta do something. :) Good night. :)

The Greatest Pain In Life

2007-03-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

The Greatest Pain In Life
by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.

--- To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
--- To have someone you care so about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it.
--- When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
--- To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.

--- To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
--- To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
--- When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
--- For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
--- When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
--- Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better? Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life. Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them. If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished. You will simply be

ignored...
forgotten...

as you have done to others.

Acceptance. :)

2007-03-07T19:47:00.000+08:00

My long-term holiday isn't going well. I'm getting sick of my everyday activities and I'm experiencing too much twinge. T.T I'm in doubt if it is just because of what happened for the past two weeks or plainly boredom. ^^

Not being in school for four months now makes me really stupid. Stupid in a way that I think I don't realise what I'm doing anymore; decisions, styles and the like. WAA. If you get what I mean. Perhaps I'm like this because I still can't accept what has happened.

Oh, ACCEPTANCE. :)

I'm so slow realising that he has moved on while I'm still here standing, waiting for nothing. Maybe I'm over-reacting. Well, he doesn't care. Haha!

I know for sure this will come to an end. I can do this. :))

A: Hey, do you still know who I am?
B: Yes, you are A.
A: Yeah, that's just my name... Add some description.
B: A is my ex-girlfriend and my friend.

Here's a big WOW. :D I feel great. :) Awesome.

THE BEAUTY OF LOVE. ♥

2007-03-06T22:05:00.001+08:00

THE BEAUTY OF LOVE
by: Author Unknown, A 5th Portion of Chicken Soup for the Soul

The question is asked, "Is there anything more beautiful in life than a boy and a girl clasping clean hands and pure hearts in the path of marriage? Can there be anything more beautiful than young love?"

And the answer is given. "Yes, there is a more beautiful thing. It is the spectacle of an old man and an old woman finishing their journey together on that path. Their hands are gnarled, but still clasped; their faces are seamed, but still radiant; their hearts are physically bowed and tired, but still strong with love and devotion for one another. Yes, there is a more beautiful thing than young love. Old love."

This story struck my heart. I have no idea why. It's short but it has a deeper meaning. :) Lovely. :D

LOVE IT. <3

2007-03-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

Oh, I'm loving this song. :)) Or let me put it this way, I'm loving her songs. Haha. :D This is just one of them. :)

PUT YOUR RECORDS ON
Corinne Bailey Rae

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

woohoo. :)

2007-02-28T20:26:00.001+08:00

Uh-huh. :) I'm sooo like bored. As usual. Haha!

Talking to my bestie right now, making me feel better. :) Thanks a lot, bestie! Love.

Oh well. Bestie's right, hindi dapat ako gina-ganun. Haha!

And besides, there's a lot of other O-> out there. :)) A lot better. [one of them is my bestie. hahahha!]

Anyway, I'm currently addicted to Azure's song, "Stick Around". Thanks to baobao for letting me know about it. :)

"Whenever you're sad
Whenever you're crying
I'll be the one who wipes away your tears
Whenever you're cold
Whenever you need me
I'll be the one who runs to you
And give you my love
Will you know how much I love you
So you better not let me down
I'm not asking for too much
Baby, just stick around"

That isn't for YOU. feeler. Bleh. >:p

It's over and done. :D

2007-02-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

Part two of Feb.13. :)

It's finally over with him and her and she doesn't know how to react with it. She's not so sure if she should laugh and be happy or cry and stay in one corner.

Not certain if she's stupid, dumb, whatever you call it.

She assumes her man is being sooo insensitive or maybe the other way around.

She thinks her man wasted everything.
She is mad yet she's happy.

Letting her go is his own choice. She can't do anything but to go along with his decision. :)

My comment:
Oh, you're stupid. Why would you let go of someone you know you've loved so much? [if you have loved her that mmuuuccchh. Haha.]

It's just a comment anyway. :))

blogthings. :)

2007-02-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

Aquarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.You're great at thinking up new things and activities to do with your sweetie.You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture.

Your negative traits:In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved.

Your ideal partner:Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.A true individualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks

Your dating style:Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert.

Your seduction style:Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next. Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them.

Tips for the future:Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.Be aware of your partner's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes.

Best color to attract mate: Sky blue
Best day for a date: Wednesday

Travel Horoscope for Aquarius

When you travel, you want to go someplace very few people have been.You want a vacation that's a very unique experience - and off the beaten path.

You should travel to:New Zealand (especially the South Island) Russia, Alaska, Iceland, Space

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you.Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

You Are a Red Velvet Cake

Rich, decadent, and sensual.You have a deep appeal that transcends all trends.You are the definition of passion: intense, adventurous, and seductive.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you.With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.At work and school, you do best when you're researching.When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

You Are Pumpkin

Realistic and practical, you see the world for how it is.You know what it takes to succeed in life...And you're happy to help others reach their goals.

OUT OF BOREDOM. :D

zozozombiiee. :))

2007-02-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

OH YEAH. I missed blogging. :) Anyway, I was shocked when I checked my blog yesterday. There were frogs everywhere! That's why I changed it. :) AGAIN. T.T

Hmmm...

Yesterday was the day. :)) I was with Ampy the whole day but it was supposed to be with the whole Vv. O_o From 1 to 7, we just window-shopped. Haha. :)) Bought tube tops. [getting ready for summer? Haha. Not really.]
By 7 something, we met with Cammy and had dinner? :p Then, I went home by 9. :)

Tired and sleepy.

I super had fun with those girls. :) Thanks a lot! love love,,

Oh gosh, i don't know what to say. NO hangover. :) Success. Hahahaha. :p
Ah yeah, my old phone was formatted. T.T 'Special' messages were erased.
Do you think these are signs?

Of what? IDK. :))

"The beautiful girl was buried and the heavens broke out
In a beautiful spring shower, a cry for their loss.
She was the most beautiful girl in the world.

Look around you.
Aren't there a lot of plain faces?
Take a good look
A real good look or you might miss out
On that beautiful person.

Forever. "
--Beauty Is in the Eye of the Beholder; Author Unknown

Hearts day. :)

2007-02-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

TODAY MATTERS (Joe Sica)

Death never leaves you as it finds you; it changes your perspective, forcing you to realize how temporary everything is in life.

Death does that-challenges us not to take each other for granted, reminds us to say "I love you" right now. Show your loved ones how much you care with a hug or a kiss-now. At the funeral home, it will be too late.

Death has an unreality about it. You think you're going to wake up and everything is going to be as it was before, but it just isn't true. Death is final.

Death opens our eyes, showing us that the only time that matters is right now. Death teaches us a simple lesson: Forget about yesterday-it's over-and tomorrow may never come, but we haven't seen today before, so live it as well as you possibly can. Stop putting things off. The only people who should be afraid of death are those who haven't lived, those who say, "I'll do it when I get around to it," "I tell him I love him tomorrow." If you don't live today, your "tomorrows" will to run out. Live life now, tell people now, when their eyes are open, "I love you."

Tomorrow it might be too late.

OHHH~~

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

I love you. Yiee. Haha. Remember: Tomorrow might be too late.
I feel better now, very happy that my life's back to normal. :)

Happy 14 to Eesah and Lemy. :) Wishing you the best. Hahaha!

Oohlala. ~~

2007-02-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

Love love has come her way...

Happy. Sad. Happy. Sad.

She's hurting inside. She has no idea what has happened. Everything just changed in a snap. She is confused. She is thinking...

Thinking how everything took place.
Thinking what has gone off her.
Thinking what's on her partner's mind.

She was talking before, but now she's all alone sitting, quiet and still. She doesn't know what to do anymore. All she knows is, she's wounded. Wounded by the things unknown that tear down her happiness.

She cries every night without knowing the reason why. She doesn't even have an idea why there's anger, pain and fear in her heart.

Her heart is now starting to get numb like there's some sort of anaesthesia and her spirit blows her away from the man she has loved.

Her heart is dying.
She is pretending that everything's alright but she weeps.

...there's a part of her that wants to forget everything and a part that craves to bring back the happiness THEY had.

She wishes and smiles. :)

cold treatment

2007-02-12T23:21:00.000+08:00

WOAH. I'm bored again, but thanks to my bestie for making me laugh out loud. :)) DAGOK NG KAPALARAN, ani nga niya. :))

Whew! I'm chatting with him right now and we're talking about someone. [serious mode. WHATEVER.] :))

Being cold is just soooo perfect. Haha! 'kidding. :D

Letch. My boredom kills me. T.T

BUY ME A PLASTIC RING AND TELL ME YOU LOVE ME. :))