emosh*t.

"Love is within us. It cannot be destroyed. It cannot be ignored. To the extent that we abandon love, we will feel it has abandoned us. Denying love is our only problem, and embracing it is the only answer. Through the power of love, we can let go of the past and begin again. Love heals, forgives, and makes whole. " -Ernest Holmes

Hay. I hate myself. But Gaaddd. Hating myself would not change anything or everything. I just want to cut my wrist off so as to stop the pain. I want to sleep and never wake up again. : I'm hurt and this is all because of me. :((

I just want to fix everything. I just want to be okay and live as if nothing happened. But I'm stopping myself from doing these because I don't have him. I want him back, really. I want us to be back not as lovers but as friends. I know time is all we need but I thought, why waste time if we know in ourselves we can be friends as early as now? :(

I feel sad everytime we have the chance to talk but we don't. I feel sad everytime I stop myself from texting him. I feel sad everytime I worry about him cos I know I cannot do anything because he doesn't want me to. I'm trying to be mad just to stop the pain but I just couldn't do it.

Love takes over my whole spirit... I just hope he'd talk to me soon. I just hope he'd forgive me and let go of the stupid things I've done.

I love you...:'(