I love you.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M CRYING OVER YOU, AGAIN. :((

Kuratsa Boholana

Yesterday was THE day. Haha. I went to Powerplant, met up with my groupmates and had lunch/merienda at Starbucks.

FOLK DANCE PRACTICE! ;D
YUMMY FOOD AT JEDD'S. [Thanks to your mom, dear. :)]
Walkathon with Alex, Jedd, Aubrey, Monch and Kim.
Tricycle trip with Kimmie, my love. <3

MCDO. :)
Nice seeing you again, pare.

Mygally. Not really in the mood. T_____T
It's sem-break and breaks just make my heart breaks.
HAHAHA LABO.

But darn, I missed you, paparapapao. :))
Baduy. :[

Hayyay. Here I go again. Hahaha.
Can't express how I feel right now. T_T

OH WELL.

People say that I just have to let you know how I feel and perhaps, this is the best way to say...


I still love you. :)

Keep Nothing but Memories. :)

I woke up at around 4.30 in the morning to prepare myself for our outbound trip at Mt. Banahaw. Arrived in school at 5 and left by 6.30 because of Peneloppe who forgot to pass the reply slips. It's okay, though. Hahaha.

The GHETTOS were in one bus, together with the half of senioritas. :) Too bad, Kris, Ains, Sham, Far and Mikee [i'm missing one more! T_T] weren't able to join us. :( It was supposedly our last outbound together. Awwwww. :(( I just can't believe that this was the last outbound in highschool na talaga. Waaaa.

Everybody was asleep except for me, Audz and Kim. We were just chatting merely about life, faith and friendship. Hahah. My gally, our conversation was just getting deeper and deeper as we were getting faaaarrrrrr from the city.

Had a stopover to have breakfast. :) We ate at Cinnabon--no, but bought drinks there and had the usual breakfast sandwich--Sausage Mcmuffin with egg. Hahaha. Travelled again... Decided to sleep but again, we didn't sleep. Haha.

We arrived at the place by 9.30 and started hiking and trekking and visiting the churches over there. It was funny cos we had 'kasabays' from a boys' school and ofcourse, there were gays. Haha. The gays wanted to join us. They belong to us daw! Hahaha. :))

We went inside a cave. A very 'masikip' cave. Haha. It was believed that if you passed the cave safely and without any wounds at all, your sins for 7 years would be forgiven and if not, you're a very sinful person. Good thing, I was able to pass safely and without a single bruise. Haha. :)

Hiking and trekking till 2.30, I think. We climbed Mt. Kalbaryo [is that how you spell it? Haha.] in 34 minutes! :) It's a 2 400-ft hill. It was really hard, you know. Hahaha. BUT, FUN FUN FUN! :) After the climbing the mountain, we went to the river to be 'baptized' like Jesus.

Blah blah blah.

changed clothes inside the bus and left for Manila.
,,,,
Arrived at 9pm.
Timezone at the fort.
Starbucks.
TULOG.

My whole body's aching right now. T____T

But praise God for yesterday and today. ♥

[pictures are soon to be uploaded at my multiply account. :)]

THE WEEK.

EK DAY! :))

8.30.
Sausage Mcmuffin and hash brown.
VV BONDING. <3
Pictures.
Rides.
B-boy.
DMNZ.
Amazon Grill.
Ice cream.
Space Shuttle.
Pila pila.
Pete's 'swan forever'.
Change with Shamee.
PEPSI.
P6 french tip.
Mambobosos.
Videos.
Ipod-ing with Kim.
Kwento-es.
6.40.
Schoolbus---

VYC meeting.
BAZAAR the next day.
BAGSAK. PLAKDA. TULOG. :))



VIVIENTTOS.

We had our entrepreneurship today. It was sooo much fun but at the same time really tiring.
RUSH HOURSSSSSS.

-early recess of elem.
-earthquake drill
-limited stock/utensils
-lunch
-2pm dismissal

BUT IT WAS A SUCCESS. :)
Thank you, Lord. <3


OUTBOUND TOMORROW! :D

I love your 'ui'. Hahaha. :))

Oh yeah yeah.
I chose to blog than to do my fil. writing. Hahaha.

Mygaad. Today was simply tiring. Most of us were out of the class to finish and get four grades for our CA and ofcourse, discuss the kids about the earthquake drill.

It was really really fun cos the grade 1 and 2's were so cooperative and they were really listening to us. :) FUN! :D [i think it's because of the lollies. Haha.]

After a loooonngg day of talking.
Had the chance to be with Mkat, my seatmate. Haha. We went to Glorietta, no, actually it was Landmark to buy things for our bazaar on Thursday. Haha. Carrying those cans, potatoes and stuff, we walked on the other side, SM. Bought stuff again. GAAAAH. The bags were heavy, you know. Haha. We finished at around 6.30 with a little money left. T____T But it's okay, hoping to get high profit on Thursday.:)

EK tomorrow--
it'll be really an educational trip cos while riding the ferris wheel, we have to solve for that math problem. Hahahahaha. What fun. T_T

PINK AND WHITE. ♥

Okkkkaaaaayyyyy.
DLSU College Entrance Test earlier.
8am-12.30pm

My gally. Hahaha. I was sooo happy because I saw my elementary schoolmates though I really didn't recognise them easily. Hahaha. They look different now. Well maybe, I look different too. Hahahaha.

I also saw my vintage sis, Megann, for the very first time! Hahaha. Though I wasn't really able to chat with her cos we were in our own groups.
Nice to see you, sis. :)

The testing room...
EXIMIUS and some girls from AC. :)

The test...
It's effff... hard. BOW.
But the english and filipino essays were easy. :D

Although I'm not really sure if I want to be in that uni next year, still want to pass. :D
Again, I'm asking for your prayers. :)

Thank God for this day. :)

Dancing with Myself.

Uh huh. I AM SOOO BORED.

I have a lot of projects to do but I'm too lazy to start writing, making, answering them. Hahahaha. Ohwell.

Physics--long exam. reaction paper. puzzle.
Filipino--talaarawan. [i need 10 entries, i think.]
THE-- icing. weaving thing. bazaar idea.
English--theme writing.
Computer--poster/movie cover.

When laziness strikes, talo ka talaga.

Hayyay. Exams just finished yesterday. Thank God.
Really praying to get pleasing scores this time. :D

DLSU-ET on Sunday. :)
Goodluck, Eximius. See ya.

Hmm. I'm speechless. :))

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I wanna dance with somebody. I wanna feel the heat with somebody! :))

I miss you. :D

And friends, I'm terribly missing the old times. :[

Happy holidays, everyone. :D

Caramel Frappe.

What a Saturday.
It's like I was thrown away from the earth and landed on Mars.

I woke up at 15 to 1, I think. Ohwell.

Hmmmm. I'm just bored that's why I'm talking in here, though I have nothing to say, really.

Gally. Can't find the words... T_______________________T

It's an emo day today.

I did nothing but to think of that chinese food. :))
Uh, shopao? Hahahaahhaa.


My gally. I really can't understand why I'm going back to my old self. I said I'm okay but the letter he gave made me think too much again.

My god. I'm wanting him back. T____T
Does this make me really stupid? Of course, NOT.
This is love. <3>

I want to talk to him but I just don't have any idea what to say. I want to let him know that perhaps I still feel the same, but I just don't know how to express it. I want to show him that I care, but I just can't move and do something about it.

I think I'm just scared to totally lose him this time.

My friends told me to let him know everything I feel, thinking that I would regret things later, but myself doesn't really want to. They told me to talk to him, but I really can't find things to say. T___T [I'm quiet now when it comes to talking to him. Hahahaha.] I'm not so sure if I really have to say all of these. I'm just hoping that when I tell everyone about this thingy, I'd have peace of mind. hahaha. LABO.

Maybe this is the effect of drinking coffee, eh? corny.

Hayay. I wish I could make things right; I could bring back everything from the past; I could correct all the mistakes I did.

It's been 7 months and close to a year, yet I still feel the same.
Nothing has changed. :|

Oh well. I think I have to stop this shitty thing. Hahahah.
It would make no good. no sense. Hahaha.

I wish I have the powers to capture his <3 again. Hahahaha. :D

Where can I buy a LOVE POTION?
HHAHAHAHAA.

I WILL. ♥

The Ghettos had their retreat at Don Bosco, Batulao on October 1-3 '07.
It was a success. :)

My Bernadette Family became closer. :) Thank God. ♥

Let me just share the things I've learned from that retreat.

Day 1 with Fr. Chris

On our first day, we talked about happiness.

who can be happy
what can make you happy
why do you have to be happy
how can you be happy

all those questions about happiness.

Happiness-- it happens when you're doing something else. You attain it if you work for them; if you do something just to be happy. It will not come to you unless you ask and work hard for it. As for our age, we cannot have this 'true' happiness because we are still exploring things; we are still growing; we are still gaining experiences.

Fr. Chris left us with the 10 keys to happiness:
1. We have to accept ourselves as we are. [self-acceptance]
2. Assume full responsibility for our lives-- 'this is my life. It is my own. I am responsible of how it will turn out to be. I am the one who's going to run my OWN life. Nobody cares and will care.'

Having full responsibility is connected with choosing. We all have our choices.
You may choose to live by yourself or live with someone; you may choose to drown yourself with alcohol and smoke or keep yourself busy shopping. Everything depends on you because this is your life.

Choices haves elements: self awareness, imagination, formed conscience and independent will.
"I AM FREE TO MAKE A CHOICE."

3. Look after our needs.
4. Make our lives an act of love--in other words, 'we must love.' Love is a verb. It is a 'doing'. You have to love to live and to be truly happy.
"The measure of love is the love without measure."
5.Stretch by moving our of our comfort zones--in reality, we cannot just stay in our house, we have to experience different things. We cannot just have 'pasarap' in life. We should get out of our cages and try new things. We do not have to feel comfortable in one thing. We have to let our bodies cry, laugh and weep. [gets niyo ba? haha.]
6. Learn to communicate effectively--speak with sense. talk in a nice way. be sensitive. :)
7. Enjoy the good things in life--thank God for all the beautiful things that happens in His gift.
8. Be good finders--be positive.
9. Seek growth not perfection--GROW. People commit mistakes and you just have to learn from it. Don't be stuck on what you've done in the past. Move forward and live a new life.
10. Make prayer a part of your daily life--to be truly happy, you need the help of God. Ask and thank Him for everything.

*do not give up easily in life.
*move on.
*don't be afraid of making mistakes. What's important is that you learn from them.
**"life asks for every individual a contribution and it is up to that individual to discover what it should be"--Viktor Frankl
*take risks.
*"Growth begins when blaming ends."
*"I AM IN-CHARGE."

--"Listen to what I'm not saying."

4 elements in Listening:
= open ear
= open heart
= integrity- "I bring my whole self to the situation."
= commitment

I may not have stated here everything but these points inspired me a lot. :) I hope it'd inspire you too or perhaps help you. :D

Day 2 with Fr. Ding

DECISION
== self-others-God
"Love is always to give."
== Freedom-- it is not to do the right thing or the bad thing but to do what is right and good.

Sessions with Fr. Ding was more on reflections. I was able to realise a lot of things; people come and go but I still have a life to live. Cherish the people around you while they're still here. :)

Day 3 with Fr. Chris and Fr. Ding-- last activity, songs, pictorial, Holy Mass, goodbye's. Thank you, Fathers. :) I'll never forget you. :D