24 Things. :D

Okay. I don't know what's going on with me right now. :/
I'm really missing the old times. :/

24 Things I Miss:
--I miss you because you always make me smile.
--I miss kidding around with you.
--I miss talking to you.
--I miss your hugs and kisses.
--I miss our sweet nothings.
--I miss the special feeling you made me feel.
--I miss being loved by you.
--I miss texting with you.
--I miss teasing you.
--I miss you because you care.
--I miss our sweet arguments.
--I miss your expressions.
--I miss your face.
--I miss you because I love you.
--I miss you when you're being Mr. F. :))
--I miss the way you talk.
--I miss your voice.
--I miss singing with you.
--I miss your corny jokes.
--I miss your laugh.
--I miss you because you're sometimes cheesy.
--I miss your looonngg 'mwaaaaah'. Haha.
--I miss everything about you.
--I miss you because you were my keso/shoti/paotoise.


Gaaaah. First time. It's hard to think twenty four things! Haha. :)
Hay. I just miss Pao a lot... :( It's been 6 days without any communication with him and it feels like 6 years. Bam!!! "nyee, baduy! hehe"
But yeah. I know this doesn't mean anything to him.
Just want everybody to know. Hee. :D
...though it's kind of worthless. :/

Happy/Sad 24. :)

Whoa. It's the 24th. I just feel like posting something non-sense in here. Haha. :D

I was talking to Bettina and Nicole last night. Gaaah. Nicole. Haha. :)) It was fun but then time came when things flashed back again. Haha. Ohwell.
After talking to them, Eesah called me up and listened to whatever I was saying.

--It's supposedly 17 months already. OHWELL. Haha.

At 30 past 2, Cammy called me and we talked about random things.
...fell asleep.

---I am feeling much better now, guys. Thanks for worrying. Hahaha. :D
---The 24th day of every month was a special day for me ages ago. :) But now, maybe just an ordinary day. :[

---If I could just win you back, I promise to make it better. :)

Happy Anniversary to my beloved parents. :)

+changed my layout into something decent. Haha. Got sick of the old one. :D

With all her heart and soul, she prays.

I'm seriously bored. T__T And I super hate it.

"All I can think about is you. The way you say you love me too and everytime I close my eyes, I see your face. My love can never be erased and you can never be replaced."

She is doing too much thinking. The only time she doesn't think is when she sleeps. But in her sleep, she dreams of him.
She makes people think she is okay but no one believes her.

These things makes her more scared than ever.

She feels like sooner or later, she'll be mentally-illed. And, that is, because of him.
She knows she's being stupid but she just can't resist her stupidity.
She expects a lot than before, but she knows her expectations will bring her down.
She thinks of planning, but she doesn't know how to start.

She wants to move on, but she just can't.

Loving him makes her hate herself.
All the love is for him. Nothing left for herself.

With all her heart and soul, she prays for the scars of her heart to be healed.

Blast. :D

12-13 May

Eesah's and Ionne's birthday celebration! It was soo much fun.. AGAIN. Haha! Ohwell, I just love being with them. :)

SUMMARY:
--Glorietta. The usual place.
--Starbucks
--Surprised Eesah. WOW. Haha.
--Shopping.
--Big Grill

It ended there. No, it didn't. Birthday super friends were the one who should be surprised by things. But I was the one surprised. Eesah, "set" me up again. :) Well, Ampy was 'set' as well. Haha!

Yes, I was surprised.
The surprise: Presence of someone

The presence of that someone didn't make me feel good, seriously. It brought me tons of pain and buckets of tears. Wow.

And every time this happens, I'm melting and I’m losing all I that have.

Anyway, we went to Eesah's house by 30 past 10. :) Slept at 5 to 6 in the morning. :) What fun. :)

Happy birthday to both of you, again. :) I love you, girls.

15 May

Meeting with the VYC.
Nothing much happened. But I was still playing the role of being a "Drama Queen".
Tears. tears. tears.
Thank you for making me feel this feeling. :)

16 May

Induction of officers. Fun. :)
I'm soo excited for the 20th to 21st. We might be having a Medical Mission at Crow Valley, Tarlac. :)
I just loovee outreach programs. :D

Moving on.

I'm not happy. And, I'm close to giving up. God. I want to cry. I'm trying to do my best to bring back everything. But, I am failing or should I say, I failed. Well, I shouldn't be hoping nor expecting things from him, in the first place.

I have plans, but they're just plans. How can I do those without his presence? I might be over-acting. But honestly,

I'm losing hope.
I'm losing him.
I lost him.

Shooot. I'll wake up, and he's totally gone.

It's not easy to move on, but I think that's what I have to do right now. This very moment.


Hay. Shit happens.
Why do people find it easy to move on while I don't?

I soooo.... ♥

YESTERDAY was the day. Haha. :)

I went to the hospital to have my x-ray evaluated and my eyes checked.

…

My spine isn’t straight. Hee. ;p I have to have a therapy to prevent my back from having scoliosis. But yeah, I’m close to it. :( I also have this protruding bone in my chest in which I had my x-ray for the second time yet, they still didn’t see what it really is. Wow, haha! :D
Anyway, I’ll be having my therapy tomorrow. :D

My eyes! For the past two years, my eye grade was just 75/50. Then on November, it became 175/125. Now, after six months, it’s 250/175. What the hell am I doing with my eyes? I’m getting blind. Haha. Well honestly, I’m not happy.

Having eyeglasses all the time is just not good. Seriously.
Having a blurred vision without glasses is not not not good. :/
And wearing glasses just makes you less attractive. Haha.

Hmm. Maybe you’d think, “Why don’t you wear contact lenses?” I want to, but my mom doesn’t.
Oh oh well well. Haha.
And guys, I have this HUGE crush on my optometrist. <3 He’s sooo cute. Nyahaha. AND! It kind of reminds me of someone. :D

That’s all.

Vv-licious Day TODAY. :))

For when I dream, I dream of you... <3

I woke up at around 30 past 2 in the afternoon because I slept at 5 in the morning. I was busy talking to Ampy, not on reminiscing things but discussing things about LIFE. Wow. We're maturing. Haha kidding. :)

Anyway, I had a very good dream. Really. Haha.
It was sooo much fun.

Highlight: (haha)
--I was in Thailand and our flight back to Manila was cancelled.
--I was with my bestfriend, bestfriend's boyfriend and ex-boyfriend. [Wow. Lovin' the boyfriend word. Nyaha. Joke.]
--I had two celebrity friends with.
--That's all. Thank you. Haha. Don't want to tell you the whole story. It's mine to keep. ;p

[And, someone whose intrigued about my dream last night might read this. Hahaha.]

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Yesterday, the VYC officers had their meeting again. It was again and again, sooo much fun. :) I'm starting to love being with them. Nyahaha. :))

Today, we were, I think, supposed to be inducted but no calls nor messages of 'decent casual' were received and passed on. Haha. Ohwell.

Spiderman Hangover. :))

We watched Spiderman3 yesternight. :) It was cool. Love it. <3

--I currently feel nostalgic or perhaps, just bored right now. @_@

--I read my old testies for a former love and I'm missing those times soo much. ;( It's been two months yet, I haven't moved on. Still hoping. Still waiting for chances. :/
--From Spiderman, WE ALWAYS HAVE CHOICES. [And I chose to wait. :/]
--I might talk to my Bestie later. He'll give me a lesson. I think. Haha. I'm scared. Nyahaha.

--Luffy taffy? I can't remember the story behind this. Really.
--Pepsi, Mommy, Shobe, Shomay, Pusa, Blanchetoise, Ate, Honey, Pare, Purple Haze. ETC.
--Darn it. I miss you, badly. :-(